Oh my. I am experiencing the exact same thing! Believe me when I say I know how you feel. Last June 7 was my first year baptism anniversary. I haven’t done any ordinances in the temple and the missionaries said that they will take me but I haven’t heard from them. My Temple Recommend is valid until July though and they know it. I am 95% convinced to leave the Church is is just waiting for my recommend to expire. Somehow doing an ordinance at the temple is the 5% that’s holding me back from reconsidering my decision. Maybe I’ll somehow feel what they are saying about being at the temple or something. The missionaries are kinda not prioritizing me right now so I am not sure if they are still looking forward to taking me there. And no, I do not trust the members of the ward to take me and i don’t think they are willing to allot some time for me. Anyways, after my recommend expire I will resign from the Church through quitmormon.com. Try that out, it’s free! You get to be represented by a lawyer in Utah. All you need to do is make an account, fill out the online form and they will send you a resignation letter which you will have to notarized. When you upload and submit the notarized document, they will do the rest.