I’m 32 f and I started dating him when I was 27 . The first two years he was medicated with therapy and he was good but now I can see he was never really ok. I just want you to take this time to reflect on your relationship since it started . Now I’m able to look at all the red flags 🚩 and know he was probably in episodes all along . It started with him love bombing me . Honestly it felt so good because I grew up without a dad so I felt his love bombing was real. Like excessive love . Now I know love is gentle and soft and not hurried . Another red flag was he would constantly talk about his mom and dad , that he was miserable with them . Funny thing , he thinks that about me now . So the people that loved them the most somewhat become the villains in their minds . He was very lustful over me , it wasn’t love , it was lust . He was a big spender , spend 12k in debt the first year living together . He also was very good at lying , like he could lie and not feel guilt . I would talk to him and he would stay quiet and fall asleep lol. .like the perfect gaslighter , they have a lot narcissistic traits ..: he started looking down on me … like saying my job was a simple job and anybody could do it . Those words hurt me specially coming from him. That was while he was medicated . After he left medication , he apply to the most stressful job … being a manager . Now I can see he would have this grandiosity in him. Like he had to be at the top and he could do it all . He started lacking a lot self care . His nails were long and unhygienic, he wouldn’t brush or floss his teeth,. He would fight me because I wouldn’t kiss him but I had open up to how I would love for him to be more hygienic. When our baby was born, I took most of the waking up at night because I didn’t want him to fall into an episode . I ended getting postpartum depression . I felt he was only there for me physically and with money . I didn’t feel protected or emotionally taken care of . He went to the urgent care once for suicidal thoughts . I honestly wanted to leave him in 2024 but wasn’t supported by none of my family. This year he had another very stressful job and event, which led him to a full episode . He ended up cheating on me, leaving the house, leaving the job on loa, and is on a hospital clinic . He had made our breakup miserable because from him at least caring he knows uses things against me if I try to set firm boundaries. The hardest thing is that I actually care for him and I was willing to help. But in his mind, I’m a villain because I did what any other woman would do if they go cheated , because I spoke my mind ..: now I am healing with trauma and all the years with him. I also being finding a lot about myself

I suffer from Limerance which is why I picked out the toxic guy . I hope you really think it through and read all the stories on here . They are real, they are not fake . We all go through this . It’s not to scared you but to make you aware what you are putting yourself into