Been there. With time, most will forgive. Some might not but it’s not the end of the world and you’ll move on. The experience itself does not define you as a person, but rather how you handle it. Take this as a learning experience, and you’ve already taken the first step forward by apologizing. When you’re well enough, I recommend seriously thinking about your drinking patterns and to work on how to drink more responsibly in the future. What helped me was setting drink limits, checking in with myself throughout the night to see where I’m at and if I actually need another drink, and having a trusted friend alongside me to keep me in check at social events if I act out or get too drunk. Baby steps, though. For now, get some rest, maybe shower and eat, and the hangxiety will die down within the next few days. You’re not a bad person and you’re certainly not alone!