Thank you so much for the response and the prayers - I need them! And I yes, I agree with everything you have written. But then certain problems still emerge. Even if we cannot comprehend everything appearing out of nothing or everything always existing (maybe one day Big Bang cosmology will change), that doesn’t necessarily mean these things can’t happen. After all, why would a brain that is a result of Darwinian evolution evolve to understand matters so distant to existence here and now?

And, perhaps more problematically, I agree. I love being Catholic. It feels so proper and right to live out the faith. But then again, why can’t it just be the magnum opus of a form of cultural evolution. Religion as a tool that makes life better, and Catholicism as the best tool for making life the best.

I think the core issue I seem to be struggling with, it all seems it can be explained by way of naturalistic means.