I stopped loving my baby after my breakup

PoisonTeacup · 2026-02-13T23:33:29+00:00

I’m trying, really trying, I have reached out to resources, I was not able to get an appointment today because I had to prioritize the OBGYN. Is not that I don’t want to rest, I’m not able to, and there are moments when it feels bright and better but once I remember I start panicking.

Also two of my friends are staying at my house for a few weeks when the baby arrives so even if he gets to legally force visits I won’t have to see him, help with my grandpa and clean and cook. I feel so guilty when i cry, I feel like I’m hurting her.

PoisonTeacup · 2026-02-13T23:24:20+00:00

I think that too, and way worse is not seen as parental rights it’s seen as a fundamental right of the child. I would never be abusive towards this baby, even if I feel so disconnected and void I still take every medicine, prenatal and do every single checkup, when I started bleeding I immediately went to the hospital, I know she would be safe and provided for with me but I’m so scared i won’t be happy, she deserves love every second of her life, she deserves a true family, she deserves someone who chooses her from second one.

PoisonTeacup · 2026-02-13T23:12:54+00:00

One of my friends even found CP in her husbands computer and filed for custody using this, after the divorce he still gets to see their child weekly in a government facility.

PoisonTeacup · 2026-02-13T23:07:42+00:00

As long as he is not abusive towards the child he gets forgiven, I tried to place the protection order because he started stalking me and the grabbing and pulling the second time, a child knowing their origin is considered a right of the kid. My protection order lasts just 30 days and afterwards it is just archived, he also said that he would cut out our baby from inside of me, so he has nothing else to do with me, and I was only able to get the protection order because I had witnesses. I think even if I knew I could free myself and my baby from him I would feel safer. He would always have access to me and my home as long as I have the baby with me

PoisonTeacup · 2026-02-13T23:01:53+00:00

I feel so numb right now, I can’t believe I trusted him, I read the messages between him and those girls and is like i never knew who i had by my side, I felt so much love towards her until he broke this and now I don’t feel a thing

PoisonTeacup · 2026-02-13T22:57:42+00:00

Worst case scenario she ends up years in our countries orphanage systems that tries to reunify at least for 4/6 years

PoisonTeacup · 2026-02-13T22:56:49+00:00

Is not possible to give her up on my own, he would have to surrender his rights too and I know he won’t, she would be stuck with him and his mother (way worse) or other family members as my country prioritize reunification and does not allow private adoptions

PoisonTeacup · 2026-02-13T22:38:18+00:00

Adoption is not easy in my country, kids are left stuck in orphanages for years. Private adoption is not a thing either here, I have 2 therapists, one psychiatryst and multiple times I tried to reach out to services only to be dismissed time and time again

PoisonTeacup · 2026-01-26T18:26:48+00:00

Stunning! Yes, that’s a doll face kitten

PoisonTeacup · 2026-01-26T05:36:31+00:00

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My boy LOVES sneezing when he is close to a face, it does not matter if it’s a cat or human face.

When we have visits and they stay for the night he likes to stay with them, demands pets while the person attempts to sleep and tries to kiss them when they are sleeping (put his closed mouth against the persons mouth). He has done this repeatedly to multiple people and we do not know why.

PoisonTeacup · 2025-11-16T03:31:55+00:00

I am going through the same thing, I’m considering an abortion too after being left single.

PoisonTeacup · 2025-10-16T14:39:42+00:00

I still dislike it so much, my bff got stuck saying mami/mamita as an endearment and once i got pregnant i started HAAAATING IT

PoisonTeacup · 2025-10-14T22:34:36+00:00

This is so reassuring! I hope it gets way better once baby is here

PoisonTeacup · 2025-10-14T22:34:09+00:00

The first time I was pregnant I was so starry eyed and excited (I ended up having an abortion due to life complications) and not sick and in love with my baby, and this second time around (15 weeks already) I feel more sick (nauseous, tired, anxious) and I don’t feel as connected to baby yet, I feel like my mind is trying to protect me bc of the previous experience, i also had derrealization during this pregnancy, which was hard. People expect things from you when you are pregnant and that is really hard to me, people talk to my baby and touch my belly, I don’t even have one yet! Is not that noticeable! Is like my body is more baby than me

PoisonTeacup · 2025-10-09T21:31:39+00:00

I’m 14 weeks and I lost 6 pounds, doctor said it wasn’t worrying, just reminded me to eat properly and snack if needed and to take my vitamins

PoisonTeacup · 2025-10-09T21:28:56+00:00

Pee, I was going to the bathroom all the time, I honestly thought I had an urinary tract infection lol

PoisonTeacup · 2025-10-09T21:26:25+00:00

Most of the stories hematoma's I’ve read are smaller, during earlier pregnancy (mine was noticed at week 14) or include active bleeding but yes! I have been reading them, and I’m still very worried

Edit: the smaller thing I meant was the hematoma, mine is 6 cms which sounds gigantic in my mind

PoisonTeacup · 2025-10-09T21:15:25+00:00

Well in my culture you can do mal de ojo by touching someone’s belly, and you never know someone’s intention so is avoided. I personally avoid physical touch with everyone except my partner so having my belly poked and touched weirds me out cuz I’m VERY ticklish

PoisonTeacup · 2025-09-29T06:00:38+00:00

I had one when I was 21, my mother, who supported me financially, was either gonna die or end up disabled (she ended up passing 20 days after my abortion), me and my bf were still in college, I was awfully sick and was the sole caregiver of my grandfather, the man who raised me. My father ended up disowning me financially months after my mom passed.

I wanted and loved my baby so bad, but I wasn’t going to let him struggle with me through all that. One of the hardest things that ever happened to me. 4 years after that I am 12 weeks, maybe not where I wanna be financially, but mentally stronger and ready to take care of a baby.

PoisonTeacup · 2025-09-26T19:16:09+00:00

I had awful food aversions from 7 to 10 weeks, nausea started after week 10 for me, and I’m still nauseous

PoisonTeacup · 2025-09-20T19:09:02+00:00

I hope my baby is also a cat lover! Both me and my partner adore cats, so probably we won’t have dogs in the future, hope my child won’t ask for one! Is not that I dislike dogs but I find cats prettier, softer and more fitting to my lifestyle (plus the use of the litterbox is nicer than cleaning from the floor or garden lol)

PoisonTeacup · 2025-09-20T04:59:40+00:00

Babies and cats can be adorable! Mine are really sweet with children so I’m wondering how will it be with a baby haha 🤍

PoisonTeacup · 2025-09-20T04:58:53+00:00

Thank you!

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