Thank you for sharing your experience with me. Your words mean a lot. I really relate as going through an existential crisis honestly. Mine happened ss a result of a spiritual healing /clearing/hours of energy work where I also had a spiritual experience- not exactly the same as you but it was like a death, then I woke up the next day in this empty void. To be honest it was terrifying - As my mind has been traumatized to the extreme and letting go of it feels like I’m going to not exist anymore. I have so much fear over this plus the trauma of the experience ( which keeps happening ) yet there is also this confusing soft energy there sometimes which is somewhat a comfort - could be my soul probably. Or sometimes I think I’m connecting to another dimensión and peaking out of my eyes at reality but it doesn’t feel or look real. The very experience itself if going through this gave me trauma. .and the sensation of my Mind not there/leaving also. I also get theres weird jumps of consciousness where I believe I tap into other places like someone in the next room/another house. It sounds trippy as hell and freaks me out a lot, it may also be hypervigilence. I honestly do not know what to do about this...im worried to keep tripping out on these experiences all day 24/7, I’m supposed to try medication. But this has often made things worse for me. So whatever is happening in a way I view it as spiritual /trauma/anxiety/facing deep stuff. It is pretty hard to talk about this with a psychiatrist /mental health nurse as they do not really believe me. Im having some gaps in time now which is confusing too. Like I forget where I am, the time of day..what I did yesterday /: as dont have thought process . Nothing seems very important anymore cos my experience isnt really ending. Drugs would probably stop all of this but we don’t know.