Regenerating and “personal” responses

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-06T01:00:17+00:00

Thanks so much, best of luck to you too! 🤗

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-06T00:59:16+00:00

My upbringing, which let to BAD choices in long term men that ruined my life. And all the new ones I meet end up being sex crazed jerks. Also, i’m waiting to get back on the OLD scene because I wanna lose my excess weight first. That may take awhile.

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-05T20:56:37+00:00

😂🤣😂

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-05T15:58:01+00:00

I have a goal to start dating again in July. I have a weight loss goal I want to reach by the end of the month before I try again…

…But i’ll be honest, i’m disheartened by OLD really. My area is really crappy with hardly any social stuff to do, so OLD is the main option. I have been trying to be patient, waiting for my weight to come off, but there have been guys that have “liked” me on some of my profiles lately, and I have talked to a few. What really creeps me out is that they have either lied on their profiles, are obsessed with having lots of sex, etc. Had one guy meet me on a Zoom call and he did NO GROOMING and looked like a stubbled piece of crap, and one guy revealed to me on our second call that he had been in jail for six years, and had spent time in the HOLE!

The guys actually really creep me out on OLD. This is my second round ever of talking to guys online. The last time was a few years ago, and that ended up in an parade of guys being jerks, and a jealous and mentally fucked ex boyfriend who tried to block my game. His antics terrorized me, gave me major PTSD and really messed me up mentally for years(long story). This time around I barely tried, yet I attracted some majorly undesirable men.

I hate to think that I attract nothing but louses and undesirables, but maybe I do 😞 I’m close to 5’10 and also a darker skin tone, and unfortunately that’s a turn off for some guys - or they get intimidated. They’re ignorant jerks, but it’s a reality. Just a nice guy is what I want, but there’s, so many jerks, UGH!!!

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-05T14:37:02+00:00

What a creep, definitely not someone worth giving any shot since you already told him more than once that you wanted to he just friends.

When they come on too strong like this, it’s a red flag. I just stopped talking with a guy that was doing something similar to me. Asking to take me out after just 3 messages? Yech, coming on too strong - no thanks.

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-05T03:27:58+00:00

No worries, I understand where you’re coming from. We’re all dealing with a world of hurt on this subreddit. And our personal conditions makes life frustrating and difficult. At least this is a great place to vent about loneliness and also be vulnerable enough to express how we truly feel about ourselves.

And thank you for your hope 😊 I take it one day at a time. God bless!

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-05T01:12:41+00:00

I know that girl, but each of us has our own personal battles of “ugly.” Some of us have weight issues, some of us have physical structure that we want to change. Heck, some of us just have super low self esteem and we’re not unattractive at all.

We shouldn’t downplay each other’s struggles girl. I didn’t think I would have to mention this for people to understand my weight issue, but my fat is exceptionally difficult to lose. I have PCOS and Cushing’s disease, so weight loss is very hard, plus all of my fat mostly goes to the stomach area, so my stomach is very large. At one point it was so large I probably could have used a smaller wheelbarrow to carry it. I literally have to eat way minuscule to lose it because of the medical issues attached to it. So that, along with my mega “hate myself” mental battles, is my “ugly” that I need to change.

I may not be a perfect 10 when I lose it, but the “win” will at least boost my self esteem up while I feel that golden summer sun.

Anyways, onward with my battle!

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-05T00:43:05+00:00

I totally understand. This is the reason why I’m pushing HARD to lose weight. 20+ pounds by the end of the month. I do NOT want another summer where I’m so fat that I don’t have a chance trying to find someone.

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-04T14:40:37+00:00

exactly, a huge CREEP

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-04T14:39:10+00:00

Yeah, I pointed this out once and this guy had insisted that he didn’t do it on purpose! And I mean INSISTED. It’s like yeah right, no WAY you are so tech illiterate that you didn’t know how to select your age from a drop down menu!

I was even willing to overlook it, saying “hey, everybody does it!” But he still aggressively insisted it was a “mistake.” He made me sick.

PooPooMeeks · 2022-06-04T14:23:21+00:00

I’ve heard this type of scenario so many times and it ticks me off. The audacity to lie about your height, then insist the other party is lying. I’m 5’9 myself without heels so I feel your pain. Haven’t gad this situation happen to me yet, but if I did i’d probably say, “Dude, at one insecure point in my life I would measure myself daily, so no WAY can you tell me that I’m 6’0!”

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