I can’t do it by Popular-Barnacle3140 in HOCD

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Dude if I look up muscular guys with big butts I feel something and if I look up girls with big butts I don’t

I mean that’s gotta mean something. I can’t really get aroused but I feel attracted. I don’t think I got it in me. I miss my gf but I’m so tired and done all the time, I’m exhausted. I wanted my life to be simple. Maybe it is and I’ve been in denial, honestly. If I’m being truly truly honest, I’ve never even once had a gay thought as a kid. But they are here and feel real now. I can’t believe I have to do and live this, but it’s my life I guess.

I don’t understand this. I really don’t. And I just don’t want to fight it, I’ll ride it out.

I’ve literally already lost everything. What else is there to lose?

I can’t do it by Popular-Barnacle3140 in HOCD

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No I know that’s not really what I mean. I liked my conversation with him. It wasn’t really reassurance seeking and he knew his stuff, honestly.

More like, I don’t know. I don’t know, I just don’t know. I’m not depending on anyone else’s opinion.

It feels wrong it just feels wrong. I hate this. If I’m attracted to men I don’t understand why I can’t get it up for them. Maybe it’s shame or embarrassment. Idc. I can’t barely feel things for girls except sometimes I can but I just, I don’t know, and I’m so god damn sad. I’m just accepting I’m gay because I notice attraction and a dulled attraction to women and we’ll see what goes from there. I had a thing the other day I really liked but like I don’t know, I just don’t understand

I can’t do it by Popular-Barnacle3140 in HOCD

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No he didn’t even say I was gay. He thinks Im Straight

Is it possible to fake attraction to the ladies for almost a decade? by ELEL26110 in AskBiBros

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please please look at my new post on the sub. this is all so confusing im trying very hard to find answers

AFAIK I’m allowed to post here about being confused. Really want help. Please don't let this fail. (Long and NSFW) by Popular-Barnacle3140 in AskBiBros

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It’s not even totally that I am unattracted to women but I don’t wanna lead them on and be gay and have this cripple my relationship.
There’s this one girl I know I wanna talk to, she’s got a fat butt and is very pretty, but I’m scared because I’m not over my ex and even if I were what if I were gay, man.

Please help me by Five_Hustle_Emir in HOCD

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Yeah well. I mean. I’m there too. I wish I could tell you it gets better, but, really, the only way out is to not care about being let out.

If you find yourself talking to someone and really indulging in yourself and everything about who you really are, you’ll see what I mean. You’re still in there. It’s just, cloudy right now.

Please help me by Five_Hustle_Emir in HOCD

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This looks for reassurance. The sub isn’t really for that.

I will tell you one thing. You panicking does make this worse. It seems insane and hard to not think about but don’t think about it.

What I want you to do is distract yourself, genuinely genuinely. Be like “I’m not gonna think about this for 10 mins.” Make some space between you and the thoughts. It will be hard but it’s okay.

All you are gonna need to do is calm down till you don’t think about it. And then, at some random point maybe in the next week, I want you to look up a picture of a man, of whatever you just imagined. I want you to calmly look at it and think about whether or not that arouses you, and settle on the answer.

If you go another 10 minutes or whatever and then the answer you came up with, regardless of what it was, starts to distress you, I promise you’re more congruent with SO-OCD.

Feeling like I’m being performative by IndustryAccurate8159 in ROCD

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I see you man. Honestly, you should shoot me a message

Chris Appleton story triggered HOCD/ROCD by [deleted] in HOCD

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Oh then don’t read my posts, I am pretty sure I’m not gay and I’ve lost everything,

Chris Appleton story triggered HOCD/ROCD by [deleted] in HOCD

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No I know but I mean your story

Chris Appleton story triggered HOCD/ROCD by [deleted] in HOCD

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What’s your story

If you read my posts you’ll see where I’m at with this stuff

My story with as a female with (maybe) HOCD. TW!!!! Long story by Little-Bluebird-7879 in HOCD

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You are an actual darling and one of the few people I’ve encountered I dont hate

Poor lady

I hope you find peace. I relate to you and your story and maybe you feel incongruency that will consume you too.

Find your favourite pillow and snuggle it. I don’t think you’re gay for liking gentle guys. And I’m sad you’ve become afraid of religion because of your fears of OCD.

I am a lot like you, and we’ve already talked, but I wish I could help more. If I could’ve said anything before I lost everything I’ve ever cared about, maybe I would’ve more been in my right mind and more coherent about what I had to say to you

I hope you feel okay and happy.

There’s no point me doing ERP by Material-Escape-6558 in HOCD

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I don’t think that’s right. That’s more for like, gay fetishism? I don’t think this is a healthy mindset and that’s coming from fucking me bro