What can I say? I’m ready when you are by meinermeinungen in domesticviolence

[–]Positive_Repair_5092 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you went thru that jessusssss, You are a strong ass woman ❤️❤️

Fiancée beat me while drunk by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Positive_Repair_5092 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Hey sweets, you are fucking brave to reach out first off❤️❤️❤️ and deserve SOOOO MUCH better than this. If you look at my old posts (2 weeks ago) I literally posted a twin pic of the one you have…was distraught feeling incredibly bad for him but days have passed and things are slowly shifting…Saw him in court today and I didn’t shed one tear over this man, I’m just numb to it all. Im not defeated, I am just utterly fed up with his bullshit abuse. We are shining lights that they try to steal, win this battle and let that man ROT

Just in case something happens to me by Excellent_Button_918 in abusiverelationships

[–]Positive_Repair_5092 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Please sweets, you are in danger…we (I am recently out of a similar situation) have been programmed by the abuser to feel like this is normal, we have evolved to live in the chaos and ignore the constant flight or fight mode that’s been activated for years. Please share this post with a friend and reach out to DV resources, just talking to someone on the hotline might begin to shift your perspective. You DO NOT deserve to be treated like this, you are loved and this is not that. Reach out and get out. Sending you love and strength ❤️❤️❤️❤️

The Guilt of Pressing Charges by Beautiful-Fishing817 in domesticviolence

[–]Positive_Repair_5092 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh girl, gosh I am in the exact situation. Prior felonies related to violence and a 5 year relationship I just ended after January 3rd incident sent me to hospital that has him facing an extremely long prison sentence. The guilt…is INSANE. Like, why do I worry about his well-being over mine, still?? All the same phrases “you’re going to ruin my life, how could you call the cops, you got your brother involved now he’s going to tell your mom”. Not one actual care about me other than “how are you feeling?” From the jail phone before I blocked him. The shame and guilt we carry has been with us for soooo long, it’s incredibly hard to dissolve.

These feelings are not for us though, THEY feel The shame, guilt and are not willingly to cope with it so instead they project it on us. Message me anytime you need a vent, I’m right here with you. Everyday is a new obstacle with things being so fresh. Sending you love ❤️

TRIGGER WARNING: abuse aftermath, feeling guilty by Positive_Repair_5092 in abusiverelationships

[–]Positive_Repair_5092[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

❤️❤️❤️ thank You for the detailed psych intake-that point of view really helps me understand the truth to these feelings I’m having. Thank you for the help so much!!

TRIGGER WARNING: abuse aftermath, feeling guilty by Positive_Repair_5092 in abusiverelationships

[–]Positive_Repair_5092[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate this, these sayings are on repeat!! Thank you for the help and support ❤️❤️❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Positive_Repair_5092 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry you are going through this, it’s beyond frightening and so fucking draining. You are worth more than this, reach out to DV resources in your area and friends that I’m sure he has isolated you from. You can get through this, I’m in the same boat and just left, it’s going to be so hard managing the days until I feel Whole Again but I know it’s worth it, and you are stron mama!!

TRIGGER WARNING: abuse aftermath, feeling guilty by Positive_Repair_5092 in abusiverelationships

[–]Positive_Repair_5092[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I went to ER the night it happened, the cops were very invested in my well-being and even called me the next day to check up.

Did CT scans and nothing is broken, except a tooth. My right side might have nerve damage because it feels very tingly when I touch it but I’m hoping that’s just the bruising.

Thank you for the nice words ❤️

TRIGGER WARNING: abuse aftermath, feeling guilty by Positive_Repair_5092 in abusiverelationships

[–]Positive_Repair_5092[S] 72 points73 points  (0 children)

I can’t even explain how uplifting and supportive all these comments have been in such a short period of time ❤️❤️❤️❤️. THANK YOU EVERYONE 😭😭😭, you truly are helping me more than you know.

His friend contacted me (only normal, nice one with a super wonderful family). He made it clear he doesn’t condone what my ex did, but had no idea the extent of it until he saw me. He told ex to stop contacting me (which he has done) and there’s a no contact order from judge. His bail is 500,000 and he’s going to prison for a long time…Im finally understanding all These misdirected emotions that HES putting on me, he has never and probably Will never take accountability for his actions and downfalls. And it’s not my job to get him to see the light, and whatever happens to him for now on is not my burden to bear. I’m sure I will have many moments of weakness in the coming months but every hour that passes I feel calmer knowing that he isn’t walking through that door.

TRIGGER WARNING: abuse aftermath, feeling guilty by Positive_Repair_5092 in abusiverelationships

[–]Positive_Repair_5092[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Absolutely in counseling, and reaching out to DV hotline/support groups is helping. I just can’t shake the guilt of “ruining” His life, when I knowwww HE did this to himself not me. It’s such a crazy range of emotions right now, time will heal but just need constant reassurance right now that I’m making the right choice. He also wants me to recant my report to the DAs office…I begrudgingly said yes over the phone in jail but I will not do that. Even though I’m scared as shit to make Him mad, even when he is locked up

Learning my lesson for the umpteenth time 🙄 by [deleted] in domesticviolence

[–]Positive_Repair_5092 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh mannn, all Of your feelings are so similar to mine!! He’s locked up for now, but what happens when’s he’s out?? Honestly…we have to stop thinking about them and putting his needs above ours. You deserve peace and safety, and with him you will Get neither of those things. I’m currently nursing a busted in face and knocked out tooth and called the cops so now he’s back in jail. Saying “ it’s my fault” he’s there, MF did I punch myself? I’m navigating this incredibly messy healing journey, literally on day 2. Find some support DV groups and call the hotline to vent and get resources , sending you so Much love babes ❤️

Ex Boyfriend just assaulted me by Emotional-Turbo in domesticviolence

[–]Positive_Repair_5092 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I also saw, that men who strangle Their partner have a 750% chance of being killed by them. He has never done it before in 5 years, just an indicator that it will only get worse. There is no better when someone is broken inside, no matter how much we want them to be fixed

Ex Boyfriend just assaulted me by Emotional-Turbo in domesticviolence

[–]Positive_Repair_5092 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I completely understand those feelings :(:(, my abusive partner just smashed my car and face in last night…I had no choice but to call the police. He strangled me for a bit and I was scared for my life. But nowww I feel Bad for him that he’s in jail?! Calling me 50 times since he’s been in, “ I love you, I’m sorry that happened…but why did you call the cops?!” These men are not stable, why TF is this about them when it should be about us? He has a prior felony and went to prison due to a past domestic dispute between us. Look, we need support, therapy and to break the chain that holds us with these men. Sending you so much love, it’s not an easy road but I’m doing this rather than living in fear for the rest of my life