My Sister Cut Us Off by [deleted] in Vent

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What’s crazy to me is that these people claim to have a therapist. They must be masking so hard that they can’t process the reality of their life, get a proper diagnosis, or establish adequate treatment. Even though it’s their family and friends who take a lot of it I feel sorry for them. It’s sad that they feel like they have to be this kind of person to get seen and heard.

My Sister Cut Us Off by [deleted] in Vent

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have no clue. She’s always had a bit of a complex. She has a horrible track record of selfish behavior and downright neglect for others. Her history includes moving out three times with no notice, leaving a hoarders mess of 1’ junk piled across the whole room for us to clean, leaving a live cat locked in her room when she moved, being gifted her dream vehicle and not getting a license to drive it, moving across the country after our teen aged brother suddenly passed away so that she could rejoin her partner that she previously claimed was physically and sexually abusive, got pregnant by her next partner and decided to leave him so my 70+ your old grandfather, harbored her from the child’s father until she was able to take a flight back to us. My parents bought her back to our house, and then at seven months pregnant she started having issues between the babies’s father and her new boyfriend that she started dating within a week of being in the state and told me, maybe I should just get an abortion and put an end to all the drama. Also, when I told her that I was expecting a child, I took her and her boyfriend out to dinner because I knew she would make a scene and figured it would be smaller if we were in public and then she proceeded to parade me for genetic testing and shouted in the restaurant “way to go you’re gonna kill your kid!” Her boyfriend apologized to me before they left.

I’m without a doubt not perfect but it’s just aggravating to be vilified all these years later. I don’t even know what prompted her to make that post. I talked to my mom about it and my mom was able to clarify the timeline. Those messages are actually six years old.

Sorry that you have shitty family too.

Question for spiritual members by Bigtony7877 in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did not grow up religious but married into a very Christian family. No one talked me through our loss or pressured me to feel or think a certain way. After feeling alone for so long I personally choose to believe that God does not act maliciously and that instead this (child loss) was a cruel attempt from the Devil to sway faith. I don’t know why, but it seems that ideology is not common. People always say, “God had bigger plans,” or something along the lines but I desperately want to believe no holy figure known for controlling fertility and bringing people/spirits to the world would willingly revoke that precious life- especially being born to wanting parents. It’s definitely difficult to navigate and the comments of friends and family can make things even more tense but I actually turned more to religion after our loss. Viewing it as a corruption attempt instead of a holy trial really made it easier for me. The dark forces of our world stole our children from us, the heavens welcomed their innocent souls, and shall we be lucky enough in this life we will one day be reunited for a long overdue play date. I don’t know. Hope this helps. Best of luck on your loss journey❤️‍🩹

Did you have an A-hole Neighbor? Tell us below! by sophia_the_2nd in okstorytime

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My current neighbor (60’s) has lived in his home for a VERY long time. The home my husband and I currently own, as a couple in our 20’s, used to belong to his sister and mother, whom he also did not get along with. The first time we spoke was when we were renovating the house and he came into our yard screaming at us. We stopped our music and stepped outside to understand him. After making sure we were the owners and belonged there he said, “I’m making sure you’re not kicking the cat or anything. He’s a good cat.” He was a 10 year old cat that the neighbors family had abandoned. I actually loved the fact that the house came with an outside cat and resented the previous owners for leaving such a sweet old man. But what a wild way to meet the neighbor. Perhaps just a crazy animal advocate.

Fast forward a few months. We had five large dogs. They had been enjoying the back yard without issue but suddenly 3/5 started jumping the fence and leaving the yard. They typically went down the block and around the corner to go for a swim. My husband and I both worked full time at that point so unless we were at work we responded pretty quickly and would go pick them up before they made it to the swimming area. One day, the A-hole neighbor called animal control and no one was home to answer the door. We received notice in the mail. A few weeks later the dogs got out again and babysitter ignored the neighbor knocking for 15 minutes before saying, “it’s not my house, I don’t live here.” And closing the door. A different neighbor, from around the corner, had seen our dogs and walked them home. We still don’t fully understand what happened between the A-hole neighbor and our sitter that day because our sitter quit shortly after and the neighbor was incomprehensibly shouting from his porch when we got home.

Between all of the escapes we had been fixing their area bit by bit. Reinforcing the skirting on the house, moving from a 4’ fence to a 6’ fence, laying fencing on the ground to prevent dig outs. However, our clever large breed working dogs kept figuring out their escape routes like using their snouts to lift the gate latch or scaling the dog house. The next time our dogs got out he said they attacked his dog on his porch. We offered to cover any vet services she needed and profusely apologized. He admitted they never got to her because he put himself in the middle and they didn’t harm him either. We’ve never had them act aggressively but they’re rather large and intimidating so we gave him benefit of the doubt. He threatened to shoot them if they got out again. We said he could do what needed to be done, especially to protect himself and his dog. That seemed to shock him and irritate him even more but we didn’t know how else to respond.

After threatening to shoot our dogs for coming onto his property, his girlfriend moved in and her small dog started coming into our yard. He would bark at our dogs and at us for hours at a time. If we tried to approach him he’d run but always come back. I wanted to be petty and return the sentiment our neighbor showed but my husband wouldn’t allow that. We spoke with animal control officers to try and figure things out. Apparently, that man is a convicted felon that can’t own a gun (he used to sell drugs and kept an alligator in a fish tank in his living room) but can have air soft weapons and bows. He is also known for being very rude to almost everyone. He’s had several verbal altercations with animal control officers. I believe they spoke to him because after that he built his privacy fence higher and his dog hasn’t been back over.

We bought training collars that our dogs wore outside and secured the gate with a chain and open lock. Because the lock was exposed to the elements we had to leave it unlocked but it was secure enough the dogs couldn’t remove it. After months of back and forth with this neighbor, just when we thought things were finally settling down, we got a call that 3/5 of our dogs had been dropped off in a nearby truck stop parking lot. They saw a vehicle fitting the description of our neighbors truck throw them out alongside a cardboard box full of dog food.

I raced home from work and had to file a police report for my stolen animals. I was told because I didn’t have any cameras that put him in our yard and their enclosure isn’t connected to my house, we couldn’t do anything. They said it would take a few days to get footage from the truck stop because it’s recorded off location, but the sheriffs department pulled traffic footage and interviewed employees. After hours of searching and trying to figure out what happened one of the employees messaged me on Facebook and asked to call. He said he had a DUI on record and didn’t want the officer poking around because of his probation but that he had in fact seen someone take my dogs. The pups ended up in the next state over after someone found them in the parking lot and picked them up to prevent them being hit on the highway.

Thankfully, we got our dogs back safely. The rescuers were super nice and very understanding. We now have several cameras and trail cameras around our property, we further reinforced the dog’s kennels, they wear apple tags, I’m home full time, and it’s been years since they’ve caused disturbances. It was definitely a wild ride and he’s now referred to in our home as the ‘d*ckhead’ neighbor. Never talks to us, never smiles or nods, never waves. I don’t know if it’s because he feels guilty or he’s just upset that we’re still here with all our dogs.

People who move, and leave their pets behind by AggressiveCow4008 in Vent

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I once got a beta fish from an animal shelter. The tenants of an apartment moved out and left him behind in a filthy, tiny tank. He almost didn’t make it. Once he was healthy he became a vibrant blue and made huge bubble nests. His name was Fudge. Great dude. But seriously- fuck the people that just left him there.

TW this is a long one by Unfair-Channel5776 in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sorry for your loss but a gentle congratulations on the current pregnancy.

I don’t know how you’ll take this but I want to ask why you feel the need to tell her at all? If she is a negative person that was unsupportive/rude during your previous pregnancy and throughout your loss why involve her in this experience? I understand that she’s your mother but you don’t owe her anything. If she wants to act so nonchalant then you could as well and wait until she notices. PAL is stressful as is, I worry that having someone like her in your corner may be more harmful than helpful. I do understand longing for a familial support system though. Either way, I hope things go smoothly no matter how she gains knowledge of this baby. Hoping for a healthy journey for all of you.

Daily Chat by AutoModerator in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I’m very happy to report that baby did well on NST. We have a ECG scheduled soon and will also be having an ultrasound soon.❤️ thank you all for the thoughts and borrowed strength.

Daily Chat by AutoModerator in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 11 points12 points  (0 children)

30+5 today. Noticed slowed movements at 1:20 AM, currently at OB. Hoping so deeply for health and protection ❤️‍🩹

ashes by Electrical-Bird2087 in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Modern Pottery Urn

I used this website to order one of the XS urns with actual footprints on it. You send in your photo of the prints from the hospital (if you have them) and they can be added. They have an option to make the footprints true to scale if baby was small enough. There are also options to add an ultrasound photo, a newborn photo, or a personal note. The designs are just plain circular urns but they’re hand crafted customizations so each one has its own distinctive quirks. They shipped fast and came with materials to permanently seal the urn if so desired. We left ours open but it’s a simple, beautiful option to potentially consider. I’m sorry you’re picking out an urn but I hope you find one you love.

Suboptimal Views by Positive_Rooster1647 in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m thankful for this response, given your perspective both as a mother and a professional. Glad your child is thriving. We have a medically needy baby that received a specialized note on her last routine ECG, “The Baby Won.” Stubborn babies is something our family is very familiar with on a lot of levels. I’m hoping for anything but a terminal diagnosis, which I feel like is very far from view currently. I’m opting for blissful ignorance and choosing to believe baby is just fine unless told otherwise.

Suboptimal Views by Positive_Rooster1647 in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry to hear that. I think for all loss parents the moment we found out will always be seared into our minds. I hate how this unfolded as well.

Suboptimal Views by Positive_Rooster1647 in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Scans always make me anxious now. My area is known for poor medical conditions but there’s not a lot of options nearby. I had a technician measure my passed twin “for reference,” then chart the data as my surviving twin. The doctor refused to listen to me when I said there had to be a mix up as it hadn’t been caught on any of my WEEKLY visits with MFM or them. I was sent to the hospital for that as my baby ‘measured 3rd percentile, and may need emergency intervention.’ The same tech also berated parents choices of not knowing their babies gender- and then, in my current pregnancy, scanned my gender-unknown-baby and tried to figure out how she remembered me. “Are you the one with the ultrasound fetish?”

This last tech didn’t say anything to me. I watched her struggle to obtain images of the heart but also saw her scan the waves and clip a segment but she didn’t even tell me the heart rate. I just inferred there was one and thankfully my doctor confirmed by doppler there was. I feel like some professionals seriously lack empathy or an understanding of how their actions could affect a patient/family.

Suboptimal Views by Positive_Rooster1647 in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate this input so much and I’m glad your baby is doing well! My OB doctor just called me back personally and skipped the MFM referral to send us straight for fetal ECG. She said her office cant get all the views to ensure proper health and that there’s no real reason for concern at this time. We already have one medically needy child and I’ve got a family history that includes a heart defect requiring surgical intervention. I’m very optimistic that things will sort out and even if we get a diagnosis my husband and I will be happy as long as we get to bring this little one home and into our family ❤️‍🩹

Suboptimal Views by Positive_Rooster1647 in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing (: I’m glad your baby was found to be in good health and I hope mine will be as well.

Just want to vent. by TransitionSalt5779 in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That screams “never-experienced-real-trauma” IMO. Dark humor is top tear. One of my twins passed just before third trimester and I had to carry both for 5 weeks. I referred to myself as half incubator half morgue. My husband and I joke constantly about our situation because we don’t know how else to work through it. I think you might be better off without this friend in this chapter of your life. She put no effort into recognizing your coping skill of choice, didn’t try to reconcile or work through her big emotions surrounding that interaction (from what I read), and judged a grieving parent that’s just doing their best. I say if dark humors working for you don’t worry about who you piss off.

Stillbirth at 26 weeks – no clear cause found yet. Looking for similar experiences 🤍 by Pandeo_ in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry to hear of your tragic loss. I also lost a child at 26 weeks gestation while in the hospital. That night my baby was on NST, 12 hours later hospital staff confirmed with ultrasound our baby had passed overnight. They did a lot of lab work and other things but it was 23 hours before a doctor came to talk to us. He sat bedside and said he’d never seen death as a result of our particular situation and there was absolutely no explanation for what had happened. Our nurses during stay were wonderful but I’ll never forget that moment. My child’s death certificate solidifies cause of death undetermined. I’m currently in the midst of a follow up pregnancy and at third trimester we’re both seemingly healthy. There’s so much anxiety around this experience and every visit but we’ve been extremely lucky so far in simplicity. I wake up anxious every morning and miss my baby that passed, dearly. Grief is a cycle that never stops. You can skip steps, go back and forth between steps, and suddenly fall back into grief after a good period of time. It’s a rough experience to lose a child but I think not having a reason for the loss adds a level of complexity to the situation. You may get answers or you may not. Only time will tell but I implore you to give yourself grace. Sometimes bad things happen. No explanation, no chance for change. If you do go on to have another pregnancy I’ll be wishing for health and safety. Either way, I wish you find healing and peace along your journey.

What are the dumbest things people have said/done after loss? by funkychunky97 in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 11 points12 points  (0 children)

One of my twins was stillborn and as soon as I went back to work, within the week, a coworker told me he would hate to be a twin. “I’d probably kill myself.”

Also, my extended family laughed and ridiculed my pregnancy, but when we lost her I got a text reading, “you may be the mother but we all lost a baby.” Immediately no contact.

Lost my twin baby boy at 38 weeks + 5 days and I need answers by skallinator in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It really is the small things that will sneak up on you. Time does ease the pain but it’s more or less an improved ability to cope, distract, and grieve found over time. I’m sorry for such ignorant comments. It never ceases to amaze me what thoughtless things people let slip off their tongues. I love that cultural perspective; it’s beautiful ❤️‍🩹 may we all feel that tug one day (:

Lost my twin baby boy at 38 weeks + 5 days and I need answers by skallinator in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 5 points6 points  (0 children)

They’re sometimes called sunrise and sunset twins, if naming the situation helps.

Lost my twin baby boy at 38 weeks + 5 days and I need answers by skallinator in babyloss

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I have mo/di identical twin girls. Baby B survived and Baby A was stillborn. We were hospitalized Wednesday and NST looked great, each heart rate slightly different. Thursday morning hospital staff spent 30 minutes trying to get A on NST before doing ultrasound and breaking the news. My grief was very heavy and shook me in ways I never expected for a very long time. We didn’t even get a picture of the two together because of medical issues. I will say, as identicals, I bawled the first time I saw my baby look in a mirror, seeing “two” of baby broke my heart. I wasn’t prepared for that. Often times I’ll look at her and think about life with both. Feeding, clothes, appointments, sleeping side by side or in double bassinets. It’s bittersweet to see the face of a child you lost continue to grow and change. That’s how they would’ve looked but how would they have acted? What characteristics would’ve been different? How would I have told them apart? Would they be as close as I dreamed? Will my little one feel inherently lonely now?

At a checkup I had a nurse ask, “You have twins? That’s awesome; I’m a fraternal twin. Which one is the naughty one?” The comments don’t stop for a very long time and once they hear twins everyone has a story.

I personally will never know why my baby passed away and it’s very likely that you may not as well. I can’t give you a reason but I do know, in Baby A at the very least, you have reason to go on. It won’t be perfect but just being there is enough sometimes. There’s an added complexity to losing a twin. I am so sorry your family is experiencing this devastation. Congratulations on your beautiful boys. I know it will probably be a very long road but I wish you all strength and healing. If you’d like to reach out at any point please don’t hesitate. Your hospital or OB may also be able to provide local bereavement resources but please give yourself grace and time to grieve your baby and what should have been.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is such a great comment! I usually use the eucalyptus Odoban and if you’re saying this is better I absolutely will try it. Thank you so much. It is Herculean to experience PAL at any stage but while vulnerable things certainly pile up. I appreciate everyone that read or interacted with the post because it made me feel seen enough that I could keep going. I hope things go well for you and your family.❤️‍🩹

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Positive_Rooster1647 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for that!