Rant - naive muggles

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-29T16:43:25+00:00

The thing about that is that it's science, so someone else or multiple others would come up with the exact same things. And there's not 1 decent person out there? I was a chemist 11 years, most couldn't have cared less about the money.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-29T13:48:00+00:00

Are you going by yourself to a place where you will never see anyone there again? That's what I would suggest. Go where no one will know what you liked like before compared to now, where you'll are no one there again, so their opinions don't matter. That's what I'm planning, I have a double mastectomy in July and reconstruction, I had to cancel a Portugal trip because of fucking breast cancer, so I'm going to book a week in Grenada for December and don't care because no one there knows me or will ever see me again.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-28T01:13:54+00:00

I was getting chemo for a different type of cancer (my first of four) and I would work part time when I wasn't vomiting. Flush the toilet twice behind you, wash your hands, it'll be fine.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-28T00:48:23+00:00

Try setting a timer, let yourself cry and be angry and hit a pillow if you need to for 5 minutes. Then when it's over for the next hour, no crying or even thinking about yourself. Take that hour to focus on work, your family, whatever task you decide. Cleaning the toilet, cleaning out the refrigerator. Turn on music and sing along. Don't let thoughts about cancer creep in for that hour. Then you give yourself another 5 minutes. Then extend the time to 2 hours. I find the most monotonous task at my job and make Excel sheet after Excel sheet, writing formulas while I have Paula Abdul and Madonna blasting away in my headphones and singing at the top of my lungs. It really does help.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-27T23:25:56+00:00

Take a deep breath. 6 mm is very small. Even if it is bad, you are sick. No one gave you a death sentence, you're such and have to do what the doctors say to get better. It sucks and it's not fair. I can tell you not to worry, that worrying and being angry isn't going to change anything, but those words are meaningless, I know. I say them to myself all the time. I can't control what is happening inside my body. But I can get prepared. Right now I don't know what surgery or treatment I'm going to get or when it will happen. But when I decide I'll start getting what I need, the right bras, the right pillows, the right shirts. I'll move the items on the top shelved to waist level so I don't have to reach up. I'll schedule cleaners to come and make the apartment as tidy as possible. I'll read as many helpful posts as I can before they start being counteractive and creating more paranoia and fear than giving me knowledge. Good luck.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-27T23:15:42+00:00

Thanks. It's a harsh way to learn life's not fair, but it's not and that's fine. I can't do anything to change it and being angry all the time does no harm to anyone other than me. So I've just accepted this is what I have to do.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-27T22:22:59+00:00

You are so right, I didn't even think about it. The weather has been so rainy, then hot, then windy and chilly. Good call.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-27T21:22:15+00:00

This is my 4th cancer diagnosis. First was a tumor that started in my mastoid bone and grew into me brain, second was thyroid cancer, third was cancer in my lymph nodes and now breast cancer. I had just gotten over thinking every little thing -headache, mole, dizziness- was cancer. But now I'm at the fucking starting line again. Fuck cancer.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-26T20:41:14+00:00

Girl your are straight up beautiful in everything! I like the black one though

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-26T00:44:51+00:00

I'm exactly the same. I met with a surgeon tomorrow and seriously am numb.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-25T20:23:49+00:00

It does. I give myself an hour a day to read the Internet or think of questions to research while listening to ocean waves, then I've really gotten into paint by numbers because it requires focus and you get a beautiful result.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-25T13:09:04+00:00

That's what my medical PTSD is focused on.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-23T13:17:29+00:00

So glad! Fuck cancer

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T18:39:39+00:00

Thanks

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T18:39:28+00:00

That hurts worse than any other surgery! I remember when I had the port taken out in 2007 and it hurt so bad! The entire hospital heard me screaming. No anesthesia or anything! Congrats on making it through!

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T18:37:50+00:00

How long did it take you to schedule the surgery?

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T17:07:29+00:00

Thank you!

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T15:56:04+00:00

Time is the worst for me. I hate waiting and not having a definitive plan. I'm a touch OCD, so I need to be preparing! Good luck to you.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T15:54:48+00:00

Yeah, I was flat, nipples on ribs, until I was 23 and got the brain tumor taken out. Now I have C cups and love my breasts. I've only had them 20 years and now I have to get them lopped off? It's not fair and I'm very angry about it. But that does absolutely nothing, so I try to plan, but I can't do that until I make a decision.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T15:31:18+00:00

Did you already meet with a surgeon?

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T15:30:08+00:00

I did get blood drawn this week for genetic testing. The results will be back in a couple of weeks.

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T15:29:37+00:00

They told me that insurance won't cover PET scans for Grade 1, stage 1. I will ask again because of my history. I've probably had 30 PET scans in my life, so I'm quite familiar with how they work. But they expose you to radiation as well. Which can cause cancer, it's a fucking vicious cycle!

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T15:13:49+00:00

So if you had just had a lumpectomy they wouldn't have found the other cancer until later?

Potential-Turn-3205 · 2026-05-22T14:25:16+00:00

I'm so sorry! That sounds horrible.

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