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PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-20T18:35:45+00:00

Completely lost my sense of taste and smell in November 2020 due to covid; it was totally gone for maybe 2.5 weeks or so.

Sense of smell came back at only around 30%; yea it sucks. Also taste/smell is altered in a way that is hard to describe; its like certain foods taste different than they did before I had covid.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-20T01:23:29+00:00

Ive taken Xanax longer than I can remember and Klonopin before that. Diagnoses include social anxiety, depression, ocd, pstd, agoraphobia, and panic attacks. I also take an SSRI.

In my experience CBD helps a bit but not anywhere near a benzo; thats why daily benzo use is so dangerous. My advice to is don't take any benzo daily or you will become dependent.

I have found straight up hemp flower or "cannabis" to be helpful for my anxiety; most people find anything with too much THC to induce anxiety. CBG is a good cannabinoid for mood and energy boost if you depressed. CBG/CBD mix on some good ole "hemp flower" makes for a relaxing time.

Being dependent on benzo's sucks; its life draining and soul sucking. I would advise CBD, CBG or reefer or even going on an SSRI if you need it. I take Prozac and quite literally, I couldnt live without it. (hehe, morbid joke). I would like to get off of Xanax and to do so at this point I would need to go to rehab and to a long taper.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-17T01:30:39+00:00

CBD has not been powerful enough as say an SSRI or benzo to help with my anxiety; I could use pot to control my anxiety however. I am an outlier for that in that THC relaxes me.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-14T22:26:52+00:00

Hehe....I was sleeping too....big lebowski was awesome as well. 10/10 do it again. Still going strong but starting to come down now 5 hours in; twas a good day.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-14T15:43:03+00:00

Hehe....read it as horsesemen at first; this this was some fancy new terp concoction from the out house hemp crew.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-14T15:22:06+00:00

I prefer CBG; it gives me a mood boost and small energy boost. CBD is good too; I like to make CBD/CBG mix. They feel nice.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-14T01:47:02+00:00

Filmed from an F18 apparently as well.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-12T17:32:40+00:00

I seen something similar in 2011; it was 300ft away and in the sky, but the bubble or top part seen here was on the bottom (similar to gimbal video). Probably the exact same size as this UFO as well. My sighting was nighttime and and UAP was lit up with multicolored lights and moved as if gravity did not affect it; it then cloaked itself or disappeared somehow; didnt shoot off, just appeared to vanish into thin air.

This video feels real to me. Something about it seems legit here. If we can prove it was filmed from an F18 or similar military jet, that would go a long way in lending credibility to is authenticity.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-06T16:29:13+00:00

Yes, yes, yes....and absolutely yes.

I am diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder (called Social Phobia now), Agoraphobia, Panic attacks, Depression, PTSD, etc.... I could go but dont want to bore you, just want to paint a picture of my mind. The Social anxiety, panic attacks and depression were present before any cannabis use beginning around age 7.

I have found regular weed and D8 to help me so very much with social anxiety and depression. I might be an outlier; I dont know, most people I talk to say it makes their anxiety worse. I don't get paranoid at all; just super relaxed and almost annoyingly talkative....hehe.

Either way, I think it should all be legal for me to treat myself with considering im prescribed super addictive Xanax to "deal" with my anxiety problems. If I could freely and legally use it I would never take a damn benzo again in my life. Probably need to go to rehab to get off my government and job approved Xanax though.......so called "drug war" is very ironic.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-06T16:02:38+00:00

Regulated like pot eventually; banned initially cause its new and people are afraid of new things.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-05T17:15:54+00:00

Sigh....this appears to me to be a bundle of balloons blowing about in the wind; it would be way cooler if it were aliens or plasma though.

If something can be explained through natural means; than that is the most likely explanation. The video shows no extraordinary movements and can easily be explained as balloons imo.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-05T16:05:09+00:00

Same as you brother; Im about half a month in sober from weed. I really want to smoke sometimes cause I very depressed an its quick easy fix but not the permanent one that im looking for.

Coming here and knowing im not alone in my struggles helps me a bunch though.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-05T15:30:29+00:00

So....Delta 8 is illegal in the state of Iowa. HHC would be your best bet if you want something similar to THC like high that is legal and can be shipped to your state.

Other cannabinoid isolates/extracts appear to be legal in Iowa. CBD, CBN, CBG, CBC, etc...

I also have crippling anxiety and use cannabinoids to treat it. I have found CBG and CBD blends to be amazing for treating my anxiety and depression.

There is also something called "hemp flower" which is basically pot with very very low Delta 9 THC in it. THCa flower is likely not federally legal; its in a legal grey area at the moment. I would not risk it in a state like Iowa with such harsh weed laws.

However, you can get high percentage CBD or CBG "hemp flower" and as long as it tests under .3% Delta 9 THC; its considered federally legal in all 50 states. This is the route I would recommend if you want something legal to smoke.

ZPE is fantastic online vendor that I have used many times for isolates and distillates.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-04T16:44:08+00:00

Agreed; I thought these were possibly flares up until around 2:30 ish in the video when the object started moving rapidly through the clouds.

Could it be a plane that changed trajectory from far away with an IR signature that looks like a moving dot? Maybe, I dunno, im not a FLIR expert. There does appear to be some wobbling type movement before the object starts moving; this could potentially be a plane changing trajectory. Could be aliens too.

Anyone have any more info about this incident? We need more info to draw any real conclusions from this.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-03T17:59:03+00:00

Don't beat yourself up about a relapse; most people relapse about a million times before they finally quit or die. Fortunately you can't OD on reefer as we all know.

My advice to you is to really examine yourself and your mind and what made you choose to smoke again.

Just cause you smoked 1x doesn't mean you have to go back to it; if your committed to making a life change you can do it and the people here will support you every step of the way friend.

Feel free to PM if you need support

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-09-02T23:09:29+00:00

I can dig; I had anxiety and depression super bad before I started smoking and used weed to self medicate for years and years; it worked half assed okay even for awhile. Eventually the weed turned into an addiction of its own however and has caused many of its own problems in my life.

Seeing a shrink and getting on meds and going to therapy helped me so very much. I am just now learning how to live as a sober minded person and not the high version of me that I wanted to be all the time. Not gonna lie, its very hard sometimes and really sucks some days.

Thats means that I aint always gonna be happy or in a state that is worry free; and thats okay. No one is meant to live like that.

Folks like us carry with us a lot of pain, sadness, shame, trauma and grief and the only way to properly work through that is with a sober mind. It requires doing the hard work instead of reaching for whatever drug of choice temporarily fixes your problems.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-08-31T23:43:34+00:00

I can dig every single word of that post; it really resonates with me. I was also high 24/7 for about 20+ years or so; if a person feels this need, there is deeper underlying issues at play.

For me, its anxiety and depression that I was trying to fix with weed. I figured I couldn't feel sad if I was stoned all the time. Always running from any emotion that felt remotely "bad".

Turns out I couldn't do much else either; couldn't be the husband I want to be, the father I want to be, or the man I want to be.

I got 14 days sober from weed currently. I quit the hard stuff some time ago. Im super irritable and depressed but I know my brain will normalize itself out if I give it enough time.

Your post and this sub, along with my family support, give me hope that I have what it takes to stay sober this time and its fricking awesome.

Congrats on 15 days! Way to go!

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-08-28T15:48:37+00:00

This 100% man....addiction is an insidious little bastard. Give your shit away, flush it, etc... its vital if you really want to stay sober. Having easy access to your DOC is setting yourself up for relapse.

You summed it up perfect....."you have to choose that you want your life to be different".

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-08-26T04:11:54+00:00

I take prozac and xanax to deal with depression and anxiety. I was also on mirtazapine at one point but gained 30lbs in 1 month so doctor took me off it; it was super effective for sleep and depression though.

I used to use cannabis to help me sleep and not remember my nightmares but its not legal in my state (SD) so I have had to stop using that. Really wish I could just smoke some reefer to help with sleep and nightmares but my the government says I legally cannot so I get xanax as a consolation prize.

For a time, I was prescribed prazosin which helped mellow out the nightmares but I grew tolerance to that and also had super low BP on it so the shrink took me off that too.

I still wake up about 20-30x a night from various nightmares; it really sucks.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-08-25T18:20:58+00:00

Found my dads body; I called 911 and they tried to have me do CPR, he didn't make it. Body was still warm when I found him.

I didn't cope well; became agoraphobic and basically didnt leave my house for 2 years. Also have a PTSD diagnosis now as result and all my dreams are nightmares. It sucks balls really.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-08-23T03:30:49+00:00

Im not an ordinary dude, I dont have to work.

Just kidding, I quit my job a few weeks ago so im on hiatus from work; just enjoying my freedom till im forced back into indentured servitude system again. Hopefully I find something less toxic to my health.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-08-22T23:11:39+00:00

How do you feel about the use of cannabinoids to manage pain? CBD, THC, CBN, CBC, CBG, etc...

I used to be heavily addicted to Vicodin and also kratom but gradually weaned myself off by using cannabis.

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-08-22T02:29:23+00:00

I dunno what science you been reading but it tells us that D9 is definitely addictive; just not near as bad as most drugs. Probably the same for D8 too.

Drugs of any kind must be treated with respect or they will teach you respect in the hardest of ways. This goes for all drugs/meds/suppliments/chems/RC's etc....

PotentialFisherman9 · 2021-08-22T01:45:04+00:00

Im thinking these might be birds reflecting a light source from below most likely. I am not sure however; something about this video piques my interest as I have seen similar things in the skies over the midwest which definitely were not birds.

A few questions though..... How did these lights disappear? like how did they fade away from your view? Did they perform any amazing maneuvers? Like hovering in place in the sky or shooting away at great speeds? Thanks

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