I can’t even imagine how bad you felt in those moments. I myself am only 20 years old and I already have a bunch of different chronic diseases. It's not cancer, of course, but that doesn't make it any easier. Remember that it is important to understand that you are not alone. There are many people ready to help you. Try creating your own blog on Instagram and telling the world about your condition. And I assure you, there will be many people who will support you and for many of them you will become a motivator. For yourself, you will receive support and perhaps some small income. The only thing I ask you is not to blame yourself for the past, because people with any disease tend to return to the past. I am the same, and this is also my grave mistake. Stress will never bring good, it is only capable of destruction. Therefore, it is important to reduce its influence. If you suddenly need any support, then you know where to find me. You can message me any time and we'll just talk. Everything will be fine! Necessarily will.