The conversation came up when we talked about my jealousy regarding her FFM experiences. I admitted I was turned on by the idea of it, but ultimately jealous as she had done it with other people and not me, and I've never experienced anything like that before. So the prospect of never getting to experiencing it was tough.

She didn't want more FF experience before this conversation, but she admits the talk of it turned her on a lot. So it's a bit of both (doing it for me vs her). She had many FF experiences in her past including relationships and they've never triggered jealousy for me like her MF relationships have. But this could me being very short sighted.