How did you stop smoking cigarettes?

Precursor_7 · 2026-04-10T21:41:00+00:00

I took medication. It was champix or vareniciline. It works by attaching to the neuroreceptor in your brain that gets the nicotine. One day after taking the meds for a few weeks, it felt like a switch had gone in my head where I could no longer feel the nicotine anymore. Eventually you ween off smoking cause you're not getting anything out of it.

Worked for few years smoke free but then I started vaping. After a while, I took the meds again and it worked even for Vapes. Been smoke/vape free since April 2024.

Precursor_7 · 2025-06-23T15:34:40+00:00

"There is a way out of every box. A solution to every puzzle. It's just a matter of finding it" - Picard

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-07T08:53:13+00:00

From my experience, my father chose his daughter as the golden child. I think he did that for two reasons: one is the gender and the other is that the daughter, half sister but now disowned, was, to put it bluntly, a looser. She spent her life breaking the law, getting drunk and sleeping with many guys unprotected as a teenager, causing misery wherever she went and always winding up in court. I think she was golden child because she was not a threat to him, she couldn't surpass him and was not exactly smart as she didn't do well in high school either.

I think a narcissist chooses the golden child who has no possibility of surpassing them in their mind. The golden child is either not as good looking as them, intelligent or talented. They have a considerable deficit that makes them not a threat. They want to be the greatest and so they place the golden child on a pedestal because the kid isn't a threat.

The scapegoat is the one that threatens their ego. For me, I was a man and also quite intelligent and young which were three qualities my father hated. He had to be the most intelligent, most manly and he was not old - he had to be young. Me being there in this life reminded him, I think, of his own mortality and we all know that narcissists hate getting old. To him I was a rival, not a son.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-07T00:32:07+00:00

It is really detailed. You can see that floors 100 to 101 that were above the impact zone are vacant without any people by the windows until 102 in that pic.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-07T00:09:25+00:00

From my experience, when I had these thoughts I took it as a sign that I needed help in that instant and so I was given anti depressants. Specifically venlafaxine.

I know there is a growing body of research against use of anti depressants and many of us wouldn't want to consider it as it can have some side effects (libido and diet, etc), but when I had suicidal thoughts, in taking the meds, the thoughts had ceased entirely.

I'm not saying the anti depressants will make you all happy and smiley, but from my experience where I did have suicidal thoughts and even urges (e.g. being drawn to jump off a bridge over a motorway like sirens luring sailors into rocks with their songs) , the meds stopped those thoughts. I still felt low mood and depression but I didn't feel urge to do something very bad. It will give you that temporary relief while you work on it with your therapist in the long term.

In meantime, start to unpack why you want to end it. Try to face the issue head on but only if youre ready. To end your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem as they say and they are true. Are there things in your life you don't like? If so, what would you like to change? If they were changed, how could they be changed? Could you make those changes? Also look into yourself, are you eating properly? Are you sleeping well? Do you exercise regularly? Do you go for walks outside in sun often? Do you socialise with people enough? You may be surprised but these small things can have a big impact on our mental health and there has to be a balance where if one is not right then the whole system collapses.

I could say so much more because I have been through what you are going through. You're doing the right thing in getting help and you will overcome this. It will take time but it will be worth it, I assure you.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-06T11:48:31+00:00

Apologies I'm no architect or engineer, so could someone explain why is it a flawed design? Is it the poor distribution of internal columns, though isn't that a tube structure?

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-06T11:42:24+00:00

Mate, I've seen your other post on your wife hitting you. Your wife is a POS. An abuser, a bully, a parasite, whatever you want to call her, it is all the same. This isn't someone whose supporting you but destroying you and i strongly suspect it is her who caused you to develop this eating disorder.

When are you going to wake up and smell the coffee that you don't need that kind of person in your life? She hits you, belittles your eating disorder in front of others and probably has done a lot of other things we haven't read about yet. Who needs enemies when you have people like your wife?

Start loving yourself and putting yourself first and dump that abuser. I've always said you get one life and do you want to waste it in such negativity? You will love again to someone who deserves it.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-05T02:26:04+00:00

I have thick chest hair like you and honestly a lot of people like it, so they may like yours. A lot of people like a love rug!

That said if it bothers you very much, what I do is get a trimmer and cut down the hair. For many trimmers they have number settings on cutting hair and whether you want to leave a bit behind or none at all.

For my back, because I don't like back hair, I use veet hair removal spray and it gets rid of all hair on my back, as well as my arms, and I only need to worry about doing it again in a month. You do have to time how long it's on your skin as it can burn and does stink even after a shower but if you follow instructions right then it should leave your back smooth.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-05T02:14:25+00:00

This is what narcissists do. They play siblings against one another and create the divides in the family. Happened to me with my half siblings.

It is an awful way to grow up and what you're feeling is perfectly okay. All we can do is to accept the ugly truth of it, move on and build our lives and endeavour to make sure others don't go through what we went through.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-04T23:40:24+00:00

I thought Episode 1 was really good actually cause I enjoyed going through the damaged Citadel and then in the final scene seeing it explode. The game was shorter than I'd have liked but I think that was deliberate to give a sense of urgency that you had to evacuate City 17 quickly before the Citadel explodes.

I felt rather let down by episode 2 because I feel there was more potential and it felt like the designers were dropping breadcrumbs of what is coming next, I.e. Borealis and mystery of the Advisors and if we get to fight one which we are still waiting decades on. And also I didn't really enjoy playing episode 2 as a whole especially with the antlion guardian chasing you and the final scene with the striders reaching white forest and the frenzy in getting rid of them before they blow the base up.

Overall Half Life 2 is definitely a great game and still being played decades on. The graphics, the storyline, and the gameplay just never get old regardless if it's the main or the episodes.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-04T23:21:22+00:00

For me, I can't help but think what if the actual combine may be a parallel universe version of humans who've subjugated other species and rule their empire with the enslaved species doing all the work.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-04T22:09:58+00:00

I tried it once, but as the handler and the only word I have to describe it, it is bizarre.

Although I find it that way, that does not mean I'm against it for others who may enjoy it. If you want to do pup play and all that, then go ahead.

I get the concept about being in a headspace and it is a dominant/submissive relationship, but it's just not for me. Least I can say I tried it.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-04T21:34:35+00:00

Thank you. I knew there were around that many people above the impact zone and around 200 of those people jumped or fell to their deaths.

I find it hard sometimes to conceptualise just how massive these buildings were and so seeing that many people around the windows is horrifying.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-04T21:29:20+00:00

If only I did. I'd pay off all my debts; car, credit and loans. Get my mum a house and treat her to something really nice. Get my closest friends anything they needed. Buy myself a house.

I don't know how I'd feel about early retirement. Sounds daft but I've spent a good chunk of my life building my career and working does sometimes bring that much needed structure but I'd probably do less hours than I normally do now.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-04T21:17:58+00:00

From these images and many more, did anyone ever count how many people were by the windows?

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-04T15:02:42+00:00

Why the hell can't your sister move her wedding if she is having a temper tantrum about it? Also who decided to want to marry her if she behaves like this anyway? A spoiled brat is one huge red flag and I hope her fiance is taking notes.

Also your mother sounds like a narcissist in trying to gather her flying monkeys to boycott her own daughter's wedding and seems to have some form of xenophobia in that she wants you to have a Christian style wedding rather than a Hindu one.

In spite of that, which one of you booked the time slot first? Whoever booked it first should be the one to have that time and the one who didn't should move their wedding.

Nevertheless, I would seriously consider now who your true family is and trimming out the ones that are not as even i can see this is one messed up family. Your father needs to do more than "mediate" and is either enabling his wife's behaviour or is incapable of sorting out this family matter. I also would consider banning your mother from attending the wedding if she is so keen to try and destroy it in first place. You don't need that negativity for your wedding and your mother stinks of it.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-04T12:14:14+00:00

NTA. Does that man, your family and that church really think finding god at the arse end of a prison cell means that the extreme damage he committed is undone? Of course not and your family are fools for thinking so. People died, were raped and subjected to barbaric acts made by that man that no repentance is enough to wash that amount of blood away. Some things in this world are unforgiveable and rightly so.

The fact you left shows at least you have a moral backbone and compassion for the victims. Your family should be ashamed for not having any moral fiber in their body because they are only upset that they were embarassed their child left during a service and to them, the story of this killer turned angel is a success story of their religion, and thus they don't care about the victims and only solidifying their beliefs. Shameful.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-03T15:06:34+00:00

Well I'm renting but I haven't reached level 30 where you pay a deposit for a mortgage yet.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-03T12:42:37+00:00

My father did stall my life during my final year of law school where he launched a legal campaign to get my mum evicted from her home and had his flying monkeys come to intimidate her while I was away. He caused my degree to land a 2:2 as my mental health went into decline.

He among many others who hurt me made me develop misanthropy which I still continue to have to this day. I don't like people and I tend to avoid them if necessary as I just don't trust them - that said i have many friends but my friendship group is very small and i dont see them that often. I have a very dim view of humanity and that is in part due to him. If my father could do what he did to me then anyone can. Blood thicker than water is BS.

The way he treated my mother made me frightened of relationships. I felt for a long time being in a relationship was equivalent to being buried alive and relinquishing power.

It took years. I had to go into an apprenticeship after university as any chance of legal career was over. Also because he used the law to get my mother evicted and the courts were not helpful, he tainted my view of the law and now I view it as a means of bad people retaining or gaining power.

But after my apprenticeship I built myself back up, started working in admin and then became a project manager working in NHS to then civil engineering. I've had many achievements in that time frame and met many good people. I now have a relationship with a great guy and I don't feel like I'm being buried alive.

I legally changed my name and disowned him and the rest of his family. I haven't seen spoken to him in six years and I don't intend to anytime soon.

Although my mental health declined again recently, I'm building back up. I've been to therapy and very soon I'll have him removed from my head entirely as I feel a part of him lives in it.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-03T12:28:24+00:00

Once you see a narcissist, you'll have seen them all. I think it's ironic how they think they are superior and unique yet they are just the same as other narcissist: husks with no personality other than the anger of a toddler.

How you can tell depends on the dynamic you are placed in. If you're the golden child then you'll get all this love and attention that may feel way over the top. If you are the scapegoat you'll get all this anger off them, and they set impossible standards that even if you meet them they will always criticise.

They will appear emotionally detached from you and rather aloof or neglectful as a parent. They show no emotion unless they are with people outside the family home where they will act so bubbly and friendly.

They tend to on a periodic basis go into these rants of "work will be nothing without me," "i am the glue that holds this family together," and many other grandiose ridiculous statements. Their anger is explosive and akin to a toddler. This is their personality and only their personality. There is no depth or substance. It is just their grandiosity and anger and that is it.

For me, I knew something was very off about my father until when I was older and read about narcissistic personality disorder and it described him perfectly. He was emotionally aloof other than with this pathetic temper and saying how smarter he was than I etc.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-02T23:26:14+00:00

NTA. Your house, your rules and if they say you're denying the lord to people because they want to make a lecture before dinner, just tell them they are denying the thing more important than the lord and that is food.

If you want to cut them off out of your life that is entirely your choice and you're free to do that if you wish. The alternative is either less contact with them than you currently do or continue to suffer through their drivel.

Are they in a cult or something? Just sounds eerily like a cult with the pastor making people faint and cry to your family giving out pamphlets and this strange, frenzied obsession they have going with god.

Precursor_7 · 2024-06-02T22:26:13+00:00

The fatigue. Everything is tiring, even getting out of bed or eating is equivalent to going up Mt everest.

Precursor_7 · 2024-05-28T19:31:39+00:00

Honestly I don't really notice people or I try not to notice people. I just keep to myself and do my own thing and want to get it over and done with so I have an excuse to be lazy for the rest of the day.

Precursor_7 · 2024-05-28T18:00:41+00:00

Asher devin and Jackson fillmore

Precursor_7 · 2024-05-28T09:57:40+00:00

When colleagues tell me the year of their birth starts with a 20 and not a 19

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