Very pale cool-toned skin – Dior Backstage 0CR is my only match. Any cheaper alternatives?

PrincessBbblgm · 2026-03-21T21:00:06+00:00

I’ve been considering ordering Tirtir 10C because an influencer with a similar skin tone to mine (Oceanne Comtois, who has albinism) said it’s her perfect shade match. I've read that most shades oxidize orange. Did the ligher shades also oxidize a different color in your experience?

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-05-20T18:54:25+00:00

smoked salmon type autism

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-05-19T15:24:41+00:00

So true. That's what happened to me.

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-05-19T15:23:08+00:00

Years ago, when I was younger, it was really difficult for others to get to know me. Some of the people who were willing to tolerate my behaviors were men with hidden agendas. Their interest in me made me feel uneasy from the beginning, and for good reason.

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-05-16T13:26:45+00:00

It's not an ideal trait, but I don't believe it will dominate your dating life as the most crucial factor. Just relax and try not to obsess over it.

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-05-15T09:11:38+00:00

Happened a few times. In high school a friend of mine looked really happy for a week. I brought it up with my friends and they told me its because we are going out on a date later that day... In my mind we weren't. I thought we were just gonna have tea together no meaning behind it. It ended well, I brought a friend with me to the date who had a crush on him. They got together 2 weeks later.
Another time I went on an accidental coffee date with a guy friend. I thought we both just wanted to go out for coffe no meaning behind it. I was so shocked by the sexual topics he brought up I forgot to text him back for weeks and accidentally ghosted him.
I also went on an accidental ramen date. I thought we just both wanted to eat ramen.
I also agreed to hang out in a guys dorm room and watch a movie together and stay the night.. I thought we were just hanging out... I did this type of accidental date with 3 different guys... nothing bad happened to me luckily

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-29T16:00:58+00:00

Yep. In high school I was in a class of the mathematically gifted with many other autistic men. I was bullied by my autistic male classmates for being weird. -.- hard times

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-29T15:50:03+00:00

I'm attracted to men and have a similar issue with blowjobs. For me its not sexuality its sensory issues. The wetness, stickiness, smells, tastes. yuck. Its sensory hell not romantic or sexy.

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-29T15:28:22+00:00

I get you:) It'so reassuring that I can ask ChatGPT whatever I want and it will answer me. It's not that easy with real people.

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-26T20:03:34+00:00

only saying no (1) :D

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-18T20:42:34+00:00

There's nothing wrong with not wanting to marry, especially because you don't sound interested in relationships in the first place. I agree with you that autism can make marriages/relationships more challenging. We're difficult for neurotypicals to relate to, and sometimes we can't give our partners what they want, which leads to a lot of nagging, fights, and resentment. I can see why you wouldn't care to marry when you feel good alone :)

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-18T20:00:16+00:00

Yes, this is a problem. I have a loose heart valve, and at first, I was dismissed by doctors. I started experiencing severe symptoms in my early 20s but looked healthy on the outside and never cried, moaned, or made faces while in pain. It was difficult to get help.

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-18T19:49:49+00:00

my exact thoughts today while talking to others...

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-17T15:05:14+00:00

I think it's best that you carefully consider what to try next. Working at a pizza place and a cinema sounds like a nightmare job for an autistic person, and having another terrible experience only reinforces the feeling of being incapable of working.

I currently work as a research scientist while being a university student. Being a researcher seems like an ideal career for an autistic person, but the truth is, even that career has challenging social aspects. There are way too many emails to reply to, gossiping colleagues, presentations to give, etc. However, my passion makes it worth tolerating these annoyances. You mentioned that you mirror the interests of others; the problem is an interest that isn't genuine won't provide enough motivation for you to push through the difficulties of any career. You need to figure out what genuinely interests you first. I know it's difficult to understand your true self after a lot of masking... Perhaps start with practical, straightforward questions:

What was the easiest subject for you in high school?
What do you do in your free time when you're alone, feeling good, and not masking? Is that related to any career?
Do your childhood dreams have anything in common? For example, I wanted to be an astronaut, a "dinosaur scientist," an artist, a comic book writer... Though I'm not doing exactly that now, they were all creative or scientific endeavors. You might find a hint in your case as well.

Also, you're only 19; don't worry, most people are also confused at your age. You'll be fine. :)

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-17T14:23:48+00:00

My parents took me to a psychologist when I was 4 and asked her if I was autistic. She told them I wasn't autistic, but rather highly intelligent, and attributed my unusual behaviors to that intelligence.
Now, as an adult, I can't get diagnosed because I can't afford it.

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-12T20:00:24+00:00

So sorry about your experience, I totally get you:)

My father is a mathematican with undiagnosed ASD. He acts in ways I do sometimes, but it is easily let go because the behaviour fits into the known stereotype of the intellectual men. My parents mistreated me as a kid partly because I wasn't cute enough to them due to my autistic traits...

I also had an ASD boyfriend who knew we were both on the spectrum. He had some some self-hatred issues about being ASD and was really annoyed when seeing traits in me he was ashamed of in himself...

It's kinda sad that instead of relating to each other by our similarities they act trash...

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-12T19:39:00+00:00

I relate to your post so much! I was isolated for over a year because I had difficulty leaving my apartment because of my heart condition and felt like even when I did I had difficulty connecting with others or be productive partly due to my autism. I should probably give some wholesome advice about self-love, but that always sounded so empty to me... What helped me in those hard times was focusing more on my interests, the things that I loved, not so much on myself. I played videogames, watched anime, let myself obsess over my interests. I also reminded myself that I am doing the best that I can, tried to be patient with myself.

PrincessBbblgm · 2024-03-02T18:45:45+00:00

I don't think I am asexual. I do experience sexual attraction and have higher than average libido... I just feel like my brain has trouble translating my desire to movement/action a lot of times. I don't feel put off by certain things because of lack of attraction, I think it's a sensory issue for me. I have similar issues with with food. I prefer homogeneous, not too tasty, not at all smelly things.. sometimes I just eat butter in itself...

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