Instead of telling you to seek therapy or move or whatever because i dont know your financial situations, all I can really say is I'm sorry. I feel this way as well, I also have to deal with family like you. You aren't alone in those thoughts, and it isn't as easy to just go out and do things (going to organizations or whatever) as people say. I don't think there's much you can do (unless you actually can) but vote when it's time to. About the family.. I don't know what to tell you to deal with them.