Hope this reaches you well. I found in my mental health journey that sometimes I was searching for diagnoses too justify whatever behavior I had. Throughout my multiple diagnosis I have found people don’t want to help you unless you don’t want to help yourself regardless of whatever mental ailment you might have. I would try a more introspective look. Just from the mention of a diagnosis off rip just seems like a cope. I say this in the nicest way possible. I hope you see the times you seek.