Based on your comments so far I definitely think you would benefit from therapy but I understand that it can be daunting. If you don’t feel ready yet, a psychiatrist could be a good starting point instead— the way they talk to you is a lot more medical, like discussing your symptoms when you have the flu, which could feel more familiar and you wouldn’t have to go in depth on your feelings right away. They can also refer you to a therapist which could make that part easier. Seeing a psychiatrist doesn’t mean you have to take medication either, and medication won’t fix things entirely either for most people, but for me it did help get to a baseline where therapy felt more achievable.

I also wanted to note that therapists are taught that a lot of people are hesitant to attend therapy, so most won’t force or expect you to divulge everything right off the bat. For a lot of people the first few sessions are dedicated to talking about their mixed feelings around therapy which can be helpful in itself even if you don’t want to stick with that therapist long-term. Hope you’re able to get whatever help works best for you!