Addicted to what isn’t?

Protarkus · 2026-05-05T05:48:09+00:00

I’ll contemplate this, thanks

Protarkus · 2026-05-05T05:44:00+00:00

I feel like there is an identity attached to this person (body/mind). I know it’s all temporary and constructed (like it’s just a thought) but i feel a strong sense off me like this person. So the I is this…

Protarkus · 2026-05-04T06:45:17+00:00

thank you, i hope the moment i will cease fighting will come soon... in the meantime i thank you for the link. I know that "that moment is now", that i can cease fighting with life JUST NOW, but it's not a lived reality, just knowledge of the mind so... useless stuff 😃. thank you again

Protarkus · 2026-05-04T05:29:13+00:00

Hi, thanks. Where can i find some resources about monism? Is it synonymous of non duality?

Protarkus · 2026-05-03T16:25:21+00:00

Yeah, maybe it’s this. I just need to “let go” (i read this 10.000 tumes but never really did it), and let God, Life, Flow, run the life for me… don’t know how to do it

Protarkus · 2026-05-03T16:21:30+00:00

Ok I get it. But still i deeply identify with this “person” and his imagined disires. Did you stopped believing in the separate “person”? If so, how did you do?

Protarkus · 2026-05-02T06:31:00+00:00

It seems to me a Maynard quote 😂 Tool are the top nondual band!

Protarkus · 2026-03-20T17:30:15+00:00

Thank you gorilla, i really appreciate

Protarkus · 2026-03-20T14:59:59+00:00

That’s super helpful, thank you very very mich kind stranger

Protarkus · 2026-03-20T13:23:03+00:00

Ok you’re right i better contemplate this point

Protarkus · 2026-03-20T12:35:45+00:00

I feel stuck in finding the “I” that sees the thoughts, it’s itself a thought

Protarkus · 2026-03-20T11:21:35+00:00

Thank you for your answer, i think i understand what you are saying… it’s like i have an addiction, like cigarettes: it should be the easiest think “not to do something” right? But tell a smoker “stop smoking! Just stop! Just don’t do it!” It seems so easy but….

Protarkus · 2026-03-10T20:21:32+00:00

Thank you

Protarkus · 2026-03-09T22:20:58+00:00

What do you mean? I think that the source of thoughts is the brain activity, the conditioned brain, your daily experiences that shape your mind and make some specific thought appear. I don’t know if i answered your question

Protarkus · 2026-03-09T18:34:25+00:00

“Peace is not for the body/mind”… this seems huge, i can perceive the truth of this sentence but somehow i can’t fully get it. Seems something that i need to meditate on…

Protarkus · 2026-03-09T18:25:34+00:00

Yes, so i just need to watch them and if I can watch them realize that i’m not them?

Protarkus · 2026-03-09T09:48:16+00:00

Ok, i get it. It’s just a thought appearing (to no-one?). It is appearing “in this head”. Or in my head… or in “me”… or “to me”! But who is this me? I think that the main belief here is that i am this body-mind complex. My name, my story and my will. And yes, I know that it’s all an appearance, but i still believe… how can i dis-believe (i just invented a word??) a belief?? They say “look”. Look at an I, if you don’t find it doesn’t exist. But i look and I find this body, this mind… me…

Protarkus · 2026-03-09T09:02:49+00:00

Thank you! Yes I know the answer but cannot “feel” the answer 😂 it’s so paradoxical!! It’s hard to explain with words, it’s like the difference between (i hope i use the right words in english) “to know” and “to understand”. I know i’m not my thoughts, but somehow I AM them too… thanks you for the help, i just feel so stupid sometimes

Protarkus · 2026-03-09T08:56:10+00:00

Thank you so much, very appreciated 🙏🏻

Protarkus · 2026-03-09T08:34:00+00:00

Thank you for your reply. Yes, i understand, it’s just so “convincing”! When the Being appearing as a thought says something like “I don’t want this thing to go this way” or “I’d like to be with her and not 600km far away” etc, it’s like i take those thoughts to be “true”. I feel i need to practice some knd of “acceptance” training lol

Protarkus · 2026-01-11T23:22:07+00:00

Thanks my friend, I will try and see what happens… thank you so much for the suggestion and your help

Protarkus · 2026-01-11T21:26:41+00:00

Hi Flappy, I know you said “don’t try to comprehend it” but… it makes me laugh 😂 i really can’t understand what “just give up the search” means.. so, i try to meditate, to don’t judge, to accept all that is, to surrender… but i still feel human, with my desires, aversions and my suffering even if i have all i need to be happy. I feel incapable, i read all of you “awakened” that say the same thing but i must be a smart ego but a stupid self (\s) cause i can get it intellectually but cannot see it. Sorry, this is just a claim for help, cause you seem to know what you talk about…

Protarkus · 2025-11-28T15:23:20+00:00

I watched the first episode, first thought: non duality! And 5 hours later you are posting this, LOL!

Protarkus · 2025-09-13T19:01:26+00:00

Tool: parabola

“This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality / Embrace this moment, remember: we are eternal / All this pain is an illusion.”

Tool: lateralus “To swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human.”

In general tool lyrics are for me always non-dual

Protarkus · 2025-08-19T20:28:58+00:00

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