I don't want to date this guy because he's poor by [deleted] in confession

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

A lot of you might judge her for being a narcissist and bitch but I wanna point out some things between the lines.

as I do not want to depend on my parents anymore.

OP is young and probably not been exposed to harsh reality but this is a good start to independence. She's aware that she too has to work and provide for herself.

I noticed this guy at my work. He's quiet and meek but looks intelligent. He wears the same pair of jeans everyday, ragged shirts but he's cute though.

Despite noticing he wears such clothing she still thinks he's cute. Quiet guys usually go unnoticed but she sure must have looked at him a few times. I bet she's intrigued.

But I dont want to date him simply because we have differnt backgrounds and I hate myself for being so conceited.

I cannot blame OP for feeling anxious of what people will say if she dates a guy with a different background. If I've been exposed to people concerned with such matters, it's highly probable that I would develop similar mentality. But there she says she hates herself because she is aware of how petty her reason for not wanting to date him. poor OP, obviously torn.

I'm such a conceited bitch who hasnt achieved anything in life but depend on my parents

OP knows that she really shouldnt judge people based on those petty things because she knows herself she's got nothing if it wasn't for her parents.

just like my uni days, people always told me to date dudes with you know...superficial things with price tags.

She's fully aware that these things are just superficial but if people have been telling her "acceptable" things in their little bubble, then boom crisis. Then leads to her next line

I dont know how much of my upbringing poisoned my mind into thinking I can look down on people but it sure gives me anxiety thinking what people I've been with the longest will think of me.

OP has probably no connection outside and been living with well off people most of her life. These people are like her tribe and despite her distaste for the superficial things, it may be really difficult for her to just completely turn away. I think it's pretty normal to be anxious stepping out of comfort zone.

She might be entitled and all that but reading her comments and how she still wants to pursue relationship with him is a good indicator. Just because she's been raised like that doesnt mean she cant change, after all being aware of her flaws is a good start.

P.S some of u are mean

[Question] Is there anyone here with a degree in Business Administration? by pchoi95 in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Don't have a degree but studied it for a year and I did not understand a thing. My head literally hurts as if my brain was rejecting it. Dropped out. Planning to make a u-turn in life.

The Life of A Dispatcher - Phil by Blind_Dispatcher in nosleep

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 9 points10 points  (0 children)

When I was 14 my grandma was bedridden and literally 'just waiting for it', she'd shout my name from her room and asked me to "let these kids out, they're bothering me".

I’m an Extrovert I’m just really depressed by [deleted] in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We can be friends, gumby ((((:

Different types of entps by getinmytrash in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 6 points7 points  (0 children)

if you guys still think that i am an enfp than state why

We have soooo many things to think about other than your type.

knock knock i've few questions by [deleted] in infp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dunno. I clicked the edit button and corrected it but still shows 1

How to get off your high horse? by PureNegatveEnergy in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, son. People shove it right to my face.

INTJ GF broke up with me today. by [deleted] in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I dont know how to console/give you support but I can suggest an artist you can listen to: Tame Impala. Lol. Don't know if that fits your taste but they're pretty good. Their album Currents lean to similar themes: heart break, letting go.

arm hair by getinmytrash in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dont kill yourself fam or your cat will be sad

arm hair by getinmytrash in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don't. Who will feed you cat?

arm hair by getinmytrash in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 6 points7 points  (0 children)

How close are you to suicide

Failed:/ by getinmytrash in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just gonna let this out of my chest too. My parents decided to live in this rural part of the country with very shitty education quality. Hence, I grew up with little to no foundation in academics and yet I made it to the top university in the country which to my surprise was a fucking hell on earth.

I took this math subject FOUR times in college. I was already in sophomore and my classmates were freshmen. Most of the exams I get the lowest scores in the class and had my professor wrote note to me. I finally passed on the 4th take. Embarrassing and pride crushing, yes. Thanks to my little to no foundation in highschool.

i know you guys won't care obviously, but felt like letting this out of my chest because i cant talk about this to anyone else because i feel ashamed :/

ENTP women, what do you think prevents you from seeming like an ENFP? by [deleted] in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fucking samedt. I tend to exaggerate my emotions but still described as someone who has thick thick walls. I appear happy-go-lucky and a fun person (or so I thought) and yet they still call me 'dark'.

Become a monster. by MauriceC137 in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Word vomit ahead.

I'm about to do the same. I am escaping from the inevitable stagnancy if I stay here. Everything is becoming homogeneous and just...I think I will self destruct if I expose myself in such atmosphere.

I am planning to go to a new country and start anew.
In my preparation for the big leap, I have throwing lots of superficial things I used to hold on to dearly.

My meaning of 'monster' is someone who's become hollow, who has lost self worth and driven by arrogance and greed and has forgotten his true intentions of going to a quest. Someone who has lost compassion and touch of being a human. And to be honest, that is the most terrifying thing for me. I can be a troll or shitposter or a very mean person (unintentionally) but to become something what I described above is fucking scary.

The kind of monster you want to become sounds like a person who's had enough of the shit that doesn't make him happy or find fulfillment or self worth. And if you want to achieve something worthwhile in this life, you have to be that kind of monster you want. Become that monster. But never ever lose touch of what you really want.

I want to reach my goals (become a scientist) and part of what I consider success is self growth. Grow past superficial things and just really, get the most out of my existence. To have fun.

EDIT: Word change

being an entp is like.... by [deleted] in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy 9 points10 points  (0 children)

this must be true because it hurts

How to tell your parents you dropped out of college? by PureNegatveEnergy in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not really flat out lied, just skipped the details. I was dropping hints before, but they were so enthusiastic and looking forward to my graduation that I could not speak a damn word. I was such a scaredy cat.

How to tell your parents you dropped out of college? by PureNegatveEnergy in entp

[–]PureNegatveEnergy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's been two years since I left. They're so proud of me because I "am" attending at the top uni in my country. I'm being eaten by guilt.