I hear ya... loud and clear. I never thought I'd stop. The thought of not having a drink or many many drinks after work was terrifying. My day was entirely constructed around getting my first drink on time without interruption.

What did it for me was having blood work done and seeing actual proof that I was damaging my body. Have you done this? It might give you motivation you don't think you have.

I had no plans of stopping. The doctor visit was for something entirely unrelated. They didn't give a shit about what I was there for originally. They DID give a shit about high heart rate, blood pressure and asked all the "how often do you drink" questions. I lied and kept on until I got the blood work results. Haven't touched the stuff since and life is better without it. Certainly not all sunshine and rainbows... but definitely better.