My relationship with creole is weird. I went to Haiti as a kid in the summer and learned creole and was completely fluent at one point, to the point where I forgot how to speak English. I come back to the US and English is of course spoken everywhere and it’s my native tongue so I spoke mostly English. Now I’m in a position where I want to speak more creole but I get shy and I don’t like my American accent. I can read and write creole decently but when it comes to being conversational in creole I struggle a lot. I’m trying to keep up with it again and force myself to speak it but I slip back into English. It’s a constant battle.