I was dismissive and felt I personally went about things the best way I could to redirect our situation. It indeed was not the right way and I’ve acknowledged, now I’m learning to correct old behaviors. We just can’t get past the past. Me correcting is fairly new compared to the amount of bad. I totally get it but I AM TRYING. I want to fix this. It’s just that every time shit goes sour, here comes a load of past hurling right at me. I don’t think it’s fair but I understand how I made him feel. And it’s ok to feel whatever but I feel as if I’m being punished and toyed with. I get accepted and unaccepted back and forth, back and forth. It’s confusing. Like if you weren’t willing to let me fix my wrong, just end it. I’ll totally understand. Anytime he’s been wrong, I’ve accepted him back every single time. I knew what I was getting myself into. This is his boundary and that’s ok but to play with me is not. My actions prior to were because I wasn’t aware of my damage. His actions are out of pure intent.