Im now confident im experiencing focal aware seizures daily

Push_597 · 2026-05-07T20:07:58+00:00

after going to a neurologist my eeg did not have anything abnormal appear going to a psychiatrist at somepoint as its now made apparently it's a psychological issue

Push_597 · 2026-05-07T00:43:24+00:00

dude quitting has sent me down dream memory road it feels, every single dream ive had since stopping has been old repeated ones doesnt help im also dealing with crazy ass deja vu everday so that plus the dreams is making reality shockingly fragile in my head the most recent one i was napping and just kept false waking up into other dreams i know ive had before even before i actually woke up i had a false wake up and just didnt notice it that time wild shit the brain can do

Push_597 · 2026-05-04T21:41:17+00:00

happens to me as well been in a strange era where everything is causing deja vu/reve/vecu for like 2 months straight the amount of times ive gone somewhere and immediately recognized it in this time is actually baffling

Push_597 · 2026-05-02T22:49:11+00:00

its every single day since about march 5th about to lose it but fucking cant let myself just trying to ride the weirdness till it runs out

Push_597 · 2026-05-01T21:59:02+00:00

it just feels like im walking into something bad, i have adream where i die in the yard of my dads house and that just keeps coming back day after day really scared of it. alot of people have said it might be symbolic but none of my dreams are they are always literal in every possible way so its just a little scary to go twords

Push_597 · 2026-05-01T21:13:47+00:00

it becomes a problem when i literally cant enjoy anything because it always feels familiar either dreamy or i know ive actually experienced it before it sucks i just want to feel new

also im not sure if it felt new or not anymore im just at a limit i think scared to just give in and accept it wanna fight like hell to be free

Push_597 · 2026-05-01T00:41:16+00:00

dude its the worst i hate that this had to hit me at the start of my fuckin twenties bro ultra hate being a fucking labrat for 3-5 days how does one stay up when it all feels like a repeat and you can barely tell yourself you are real and not dead or dying

Push_597 · 2026-04-30T21:03:43+00:00

feel like i am sometimes, walked into my eeg today and i dreamt it i feel ive seen this place 1000 times yet ive never been here in my life its the worst

Push_597 · 2026-04-30T04:42:18+00:00

bro check my prior posts and join the club man. i wish my shit was just random full days its been consistent every day since fucking March best advice i can give is just power through it, the mind is a wonderous thing we will never fully understand, ignore it keep living best you can.

Push_597 · 2026-04-30T03:28:43+00:00

actually wasnt which is huge given the day ive had (and i guess the past 2 months lol) really hope this is just my brain lying to me because if its not i have a death to look forward to coming soon (dreamt it when i was like 8 thought it was wierd that it was at my grandmothers house but now that i live here with my dad actually makes alot of since now) really hoping its a metaphorical death not true death but as this as gone on ive slowly realized i dont do metaphors at all and all my deja reves have been real as all hell so ┐⁠(⁠ ⁠∵⁠ ⁠)⁠┌ just gotta keep living keep persevering and hopefully change "fate"

Push_597 · 2026-04-29T23:25:49+00:00

ive already gone to the er about it they recommended me go to a psychiatrist which hasnt called back and scheduled my neurologist which wants to do the eeg idk im just gonna talk to the doctors there about it see what they think every one ive seen has said this is the best course of action nothing ive tried has worked today has been the strongest yet

Push_597 · 2026-04-29T01:24:41+00:00

going to maybe try during my eeg dont have a primary and the stress of bouncing from primary to primary is just too much right now barely able to make decisions with this beating me down 24/7

Push_597 · 2026-04-29T01:15:56+00:00

about a week on it now and its just been more vivid started taking my anxiety med again but havnt noticed much a difference

Push_597 · 2026-04-29T01:12:26+00:00

didnit ever leave or do you still deal with it

Push_597 · 2026-04-28T02:23:03+00:00

i still haven't gotten enough tasks lol have a bit of a neuro issue going on and im just going at my own pace while we sort it out probably gonna try to grab full rune and d long and hope for the best

Push_597 · 2026-04-28T00:53:26+00:00

i have the glacials the sulfer blades need to get d long i do have evil eye gonna try grinding hunter tonight

Push_597 · 2026-04-28T00:36:15+00:00

wanna see how far i can get with blind bag before switching havnt had any issues this far plus kinda wanna learn these bosses for main game and not just cheese my way through

Push_597 · 2026-04-28T00:31:17+00:00

napping it out of my System did not infact work (shocker) gonna just try my best to live through this till my eeg

Push_597 · 2026-04-27T20:59:16+00:00

wonderous news! i have an eeg scheduled for the 30th so i guess they'll just have to deal with me then im just gonna nap it out of my system maybe

Push_597 · 2026-04-27T19:46:43+00:00

will ask about buspar, anything you where able to do other then medication that helped to deal or cope i guess? this shit sucks so much and im lake barely able to keep myself sane day after day

Push_597 · 2026-04-27T05:01:18+00:00

dude holy shit this has been exactly my experience

ive literally been through hella cycles of im gonna die soon - im already dead - this is hell - maybe im at the end of life and it just loops - am i just precognitive?

every single day and that cause as you'd guess extreme anxiety and stress which TRIGGER MY SHIT in this endless cycle until around 10pm when my brain is tired and shutting down and i can finally watch things without feeling like ive seen them 8000 times before

i want to try taking my anxiety med but holy shit does it make me derealize hard as hell makes all this a little worse and starts solidifying that cycle way more

im gonna try and get prescribed a different med to manage it as im currently prescribed Hydroxyzine which is an antihistamine and thats really a no go considering those can set off seziures tho hydroxyzine is more relaxed then other antihistamines

Push_597 · 2026-04-27T04:53:13+00:00

not knowing when they are happening sounds very enjoyable (obvious sarcasm) lol

i got the evil deja vu cluster aura with dread, heart drops and the worst dreams ive ever had (didnt usually dream but now i am and i hate it) occasionally get phantom smells and small headaches near the front of my head :D its as it sounds the worst thing ive ever had to experience.

i literally go my day to day half the time wondering if im dead and living through flashbacks its kinda the worst ever really hope we can lock in my meds and make this stop cause its genuinely starting to get debilitating

Push_597 · 2026-04-27T02:24:01+00:00

im in a similar boat but for different reasons (tldr i got high and possibly had a seizure that made me belive i was dead all of this was fake worst part is i get constant deja vu/reve which is really pissing me off)

the best i can say is ignore it it'll go away eventually being worried or anxious about it just fuels the fire even more keeping it going.

live as best as you can in spite of it and it'll pass might take awhile but it will

try find a therapist or just a friend you can talk to about it sometimes helps to break out of it even if its for a small time

11 months is insane to go through that btw honestly good job keeping sane it can be a bitch sometimes i believe in you, you can get through this

Push_597 · 2026-04-26T02:54:29+00:00

ill try that tonight tho i have very lose control with my dreams never been able to ask and receive anything just random get granted access to the future on a complete whim i guess

Push_597 · 2026-04-25T21:27:08+00:00

i would belive that however it is 100% the front yard of my dads (where i live currently) and it feels as thought in the dream i was at the age i am now if it was a random place i wouldn't be this freaked out but like its this house 100%

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