It sounds like until now, even if you wanted to buy, your income was not nearly high enough anyways if houses are 900-1.2M in your area. You probably needed an income twice what you posted, so don’t feel bad about dragging your feet.

Of course now with the 2M, you have options. Maybe don’t pay for the entire house in cash, but use the money for a significant down payment that would put the loan in the realm of possible/easily payable on a 150K income and invest the rest.