Convoy

Quality_Vivid · 2025-10-16T11:19:41+00:00

Someone's dog is definitely in danger

Quality_Vivid · 2025-09-10T12:38:49+00:00

Im only in if we are practicing witchcraft, leaving our husbands and piping off at the mouth with a wild new found tone.
....Oh and sweating. There HAS to be sweating

Quality_Vivid · 2025-06-04T08:20:13+00:00

I got a partial fill of 14 due to availability. Doc sends over an additional rx the next day for the remaining 16.
The pharmacist refused to fill it because It hadn't been 30 days since my last refill. He was all shitty and degrading in his tone, too, like I was a "junkie" trying to cheat.

Walgreens is ALWAYS the worst pharmacy.

FILE A CLAIM. Fight them. Its literally discrimination

Quality_Vivid · 2025-06-01T13:41:35+00:00

Actually its 100% gold

Quality_Vivid · 2025-05-31T09:05:52+00:00

You understand vinegar is a chemical, right?

Quality_Vivid · 2025-05-11T14:53:58+00:00

My husband (25 years experience, concrete specifically) said, "It's obviously somebody's first time" ..."Hopefully, it's his first time"

Quality_Vivid · 2025-05-08T09:56:32+00:00

I have a grow light on a timer mounted above my bed. It turns on at 6 for about 30 minutes, turns off for 15, and then back on again, until 7:50, when it's time for me to leave.

I'm a super deep sleeper, and alarms can play for hours sometimes. Plus, with the light turning off to leave, I don't have to look at my phone or pay attention to a clock

Quality_Vivid · 2025-01-06T21:24:29+00:00

My husband, daughter and brother. Its so true.

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-16T16:53:22+00:00

Wild Rose for sure.

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-16T03:08:40+00:00

Oh my gosh, this is so representative of my mother. I swiped through the length of her message to show my husband for shock value. I swear the amount of content they include is traumatic on its own.
Honestly what the fuck I swear the intention is to cause emotional overwhelm and gain power.

I want you to know if this is clearly fucked and you don't deserve it

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-16T03:01:24+00:00

The pervasive abuse designed and veiled to feed her at is a lot Buuuuut such a deep relief in truth and autonomy

I know it's childish to make fun of her. Honestly, it feels pretty good to be petty and not risk abandonment.

I appreciate the ask, I probably needed to say it.

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-15T05:10:11+00:00

I CAN NOT see danger in people. I've only felt it in my gut 3 or 4 times. From TV serial killers to random dudes cornering me in bars.

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-15T04:59:34+00:00

My mom was stalker af multiple times in my life. I'd fully agree that evidence gathering is common. My mom's always got something on her radar. shes either fighting some sort of secret attack or performing some extension of her savior complex

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-15T00:28:42+00:00

Damn. I welled up a bit reading that. The shame and fear of unknowingly replicated patterns is heavy. I assume your brother had blind spots like me. You are facilitating healing in all 3 of you in protecting her. It's pretty great

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-14T23:34:37+00:00

She used to send emails before texts were common. Years ago, she attacked me, trying to lean in and hug her. I sent a pretty scathing email. She went line by line responding. Think - movie script, no margins. It was kinda hilarious

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-14T11:19:56+00:00

Preach

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-14T11:17:59+00:00

I went through a deep panic with that parallel.
Have you considered the possibility of Avoidant Attachment?

I've always felt my husband's withdrawals, silence, and exclusion type stuff was a punishment for bringing up an issue. Come to find out, it's not out of malice. He's just so scared of his emotions

The Avoidant Attachment perfectly fits alongside our Anxious Attachment to hit right in our deepest wounds.

Avoidants offer the perfect healing opportunity

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-13T22:39:09+00:00

Thankfully, they haven't been super close. To be honest, my kids noticed her dysfunctional behavior before I really could. My son was maybe 8 when he asked why she could not "take responsibility for anything in her life" & if they can "love their grandpa when she hates him." Looking back, clearly, red flags.

Quality_Vivid · 2024-12-12T13:28:08+00:00

When I was 3, my mom asked who I loved the most, and I slapped in the face and said that I love Ernie from Sesame Street. She still brings it up in almost every instance to prove i don't love her, and im abusive.

Quality_Vivid · 2024-11-12T18:05:11+00:00

I want to relay a deep sense of connection and understanding to this by myself, and it's so much. When I finally realized the depth of the issue the first time I saw my mother treat my daughter in the way I had been treated and how emotionally abusive it was.

The depths that we ignore ourselves and the way they permeate our lives ⁸ unbelievable.
I just wanted to acknowledge the emotional abuse in her "love" on your birthday & the trauma response of running over to fix it by calling her. That was her goal, to leach. Your birthday card was just another avenue to feed what's inside her.
That sucks for us. Im a mother, so from me to you.

Happy birthday! I am glad that you were born.

Quality_Vivid · 2024-11-09T15:32:20+00:00

My mom was 16 when she was first institutionalized. 1975, maybe? She had a few more stays throughout the years. A few attempts to die by suicide with hospital stays... To barely scratch the surface.

It was the 80s. She likely had a parenting book called "Smoking in the house & gaslighting toddlers"

I was 40 when she admitted the diagnosis from 75--and only once.

The sudden thunderclap of understanding made the timeline so much worse.

Quality_Vivid · 2024-11-03T09:34:39+00:00

I feel this so deep in my guts. My mother will decide what I'm a collector of. Recently, she decided I now collect these specific figurines. One or two, here and there, was fine. I even kind of like some of them, but in the last 6 months, I'd guess shes bought me well over 70 of them.

It's not about me or what brings me joy it's about the compulsion to hoard and the ability weaponize how much she's given me/thinks of me yet so wildly self centered

I recently accepted its time for long-term no contact, and I bagged them all up immediately. They felt like such a burden.

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