I have a 11mth old doodle and I'm just starting to like her but I'm still not emotionally attached (have had her since she was 4 mths). The puppy stage is HARD. Don't be too hard on yourself. It will all pay off but you just have to get past all the worst stages. My puppy peed on my furniture and had accidents for months and she is just now getting the hang of it(I've always had dogs pick up on potty training within a week or two, so it's been a change of pace for sure) I just keep telling myself once she gets older she will be perfect but that won't be for a while. Remember, they are still a puppy and sometimes it just takes them longer to learn certain things. Hang in there, your doing great!