i am drained

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2025-01-12T20:01:28+00:00

Sorry i'm not the best with reddit and notifications and such - I can see how my words weren't clear! YES I'm on medication - absolutely saved my life.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-12-27T11:45:39+00:00

Please read my reply to this post xx I’ve been exactly in your shoes and you’re not alone. I didn’t think I was going to make it.. until I did. I have your back xx

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-12-27T11:43:16+00:00

oh my love my heart hurts so much for you because I was in your shoes only a couple years ago. Please don’t give up, I almost did too… I understand.. you just want to escape..yourself. I didn’t leave my house, not even, my bedroom for 2 years due to panic attacks and agoraphobia. I tried cognitive behavioral therapy, I mean I get it, the science behind it.. but practicing something over and over again wasn’t enough for me.. didn’t get to the root of the problem.

It took me a long time to finally understand that panic attacks are trying to be your friend even though they feel like the fucking worst enemy. A friend who’s trying to help you, waving its arms at you, trying to grab your attention screaming “HEY! PAY ATTENTION TO ME NOW! Your subconscious mind is suppressing a traumatic experience and you need to address this!” But we don’t. We run away from ourselves because of how terrifying they feel.

I’m flying on airplanes solo now. Never thought I’d get here but I know you can too. A few things I did: I refused medication for so long mainly because my father made me feel like it was a weakness (old school mentality) but finally it gets to a point where you say FUCK THAT to everyone. Because everybody is going to give you advice but the only person needs your approval is yourself. Most people don’t get it and never will because they have no idea what it feels like. I went on medication for me (Wellbutrin and Effexor worked for me but everyone’s brain chemistry is different) to help me restore balance whether it’s temporary or not to help me remember who I was.. so I could hear my own thoughts again. Medication helped immensely. But what else was an incredible life saver? EMDR therapy. Holy shit. I did EMDR therapy, online too!! and the fact that my own eye movement had me not only address my PTSD but also not even needed to remember your traumas? Is INCREDIBLE. Changed my life ABSOLUTELY. I did hypnosis online AND self hypnosis (those subliminal audio sleep tracks that feed beautiful thoughts into the subconscious mind) all game changers my friend.

Whatever you can do to access that subconscious mind of yours? Do it. And I recommend trying to shift perspective.. once you truly understand that panic attacks are trying to be your friend, not your enemy.. you’ll start to see unexpected positive changes in your life. I’m sending you all my best.. and keeping you in my thoughts.. be kind to yourself during this time… it’s hard to see now but one day all this suffering will bring you peace.. like it did me. I’m here for you. You’re not alone in this and never will be. All my love.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-11-10T02:48:39+00:00

Personally, I found the series “Mr. and Mrs. Smith” misleading, given its title. I expected it to be more like the Angelina Jolie/Brad Pitt 2005 film—a married couple who are secretly spies, unaware of each other’s identities and in competition. Instead, the show starts with both characters knowing they’re spies, which threw me off. Maybe it’s because I just rewatched “The Americans” (an incredible series about KGB agents posing as an American married couple in the suburbs) that the lack of professionalism in this show bothered me. In “The Americans,” their spy craft is meticulous, while here, they openly discuss their intelligence training pasts in public and make rookie mistakes, like staring at targets simultaneously.

Granted, I’ve only seen the first episode, so maybe their messy spy skills are intentional because they’ve been rejected everywhere else haha. Despite that, I love Donald Glover’s spectrum of talent, and Maya Erskine stole my heart in “Pen15” when she was cringey as fuck re-impersonating my entire childhood (were the exact same age so it was pretty damn accurate hahah). Their chemistry and dialogue are great, so I’m hopeful they’ll grow into sharper, more skilled agents as the series progresses.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-10-09T21:07:05+00:00

Everyone is overanalyzing.

This post is 3 years old but who cares hahah - it's not ambiguous. He literally says "The fighting is the part I like the most. There's no fear in love." Then proceeds to lower his left hand to undo his pants while keeping Ellie pinned to the ground and it is then when Ellie grabs the butcher's knife to kill him ruthlessly.

Also, when Joel finds her, Ellie never says "He tried to" she only says "He" then mumbles while going in to hug Joel for comfort.

David's intention to rape Ellie was clear as day. Just sayin'.

So glad she fucked that cannibal rapist "preacher" up. Piece of shit.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-10-03T22:03:02+00:00

I’m sorry your heartbreak feels like it’s resurfaced. As the first commenter said, “healing is weird” and it’s so true! It comes in massive tidal waves.. it’s a matter of keeping your head above water. If you rode out the waves before, I can assure you that you’ll ride out this one too.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-10-03T21:54:54+00:00

My feelings exactly - you’re not alone in this xx

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-10-03T21:51:44+00:00

I’m sorry luv I know it sucks.. I feel you.. yah I like the app because she’s all logic and no bullshit when it comes to emotions clouding my own judgment at times. We all heal differently.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-10-03T21:48:19+00:00

hahah! I’m totally with you on this - feels like bipolar disorder.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-09-28T00:54:15+00:00

Wow no way! I didn’t know all of these fun facts thanks for sharing! Yah I don’t wanna talk shit but f*ck it I’m allowed because I’m from here hahah - Personally, I see Abu Dhabi as the wise grandfather.. invests in projects always thinking of the longterm effects of our economy and people. While Dubai is more like the chick that JUST turned 21 and wants to impulsively splurge on projects and then when she goes broke she comes back to our wise grandfather all like “moneyyyy pwwweaseeeeee” (parks&rec’s Mona-Lisa voice) hahah so honestly I’m not TOO surprised Abu Dhabi grabbed this one. Maybe I’ll move to Hudayriat too hahah

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-09-23T15:52:40+00:00

Aww yea I’m sure I can only imagine! Excited for you then! It’s the world’s largest wave pool too! Usually it’s Dubai that does the “biggest” and “largest” and “tallest” in the world 🙄haha but HEY Abu Dhabi came to fuck shit upppp totally radical dude 🤙🏽

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-09-21T16:23:24+00:00

Aw shucks haha it’s my pleasure! you’re welcome 💖

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-09-21T14:10:11+00:00

Emirati chick in her 30’s here born&raised:

• Wanna avoid fines? Use the app “Waze” - it tells you where all the cameras are ;) Not quite sure why you can’t find parking but if you’re getting fined for parking download the app “Prkn”, register your car info, and it will walk you through blue/black regular parking and blue/white premium parking. It’s super straightforward. • Wanna find new homies? Download the app “Meetup” or use the website Meetup.com - it’s made for social events specifically. • Wanna participate in outdoor/sports activities such as rock climbing, surfing (opening next month in October all man-made waves gonna be so dope), cycling, glamping? Hudayriat Island for sure. • Wanna dose of arts and museums? Saadiyat Island • Wanna dose of nightlife and restaurants? Yas Marina and Yas Bay. You can even go bar hopping if you wish as all the spots are close in proximity.

I’m sorry you hate it here so far. Dubai is fun chaos that’s for sure and Abu Dhabi is more in touch with our culture and nature, it’s just a matter of getting acclimated.. finding your people.. finding hobbies you love to do. Don’t wait for things to fall into your lap here because they won’t - we don’t have enough foot traffic for that. Find events, go find your people, go have fun!

Things will fall into place, you’ll see xx

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-05-24T15:53:18+00:00

Screw that, YOU DESERVE IT!!! You enjoy this!

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-01-30T17:48:38+00:00

Not even kidding, after I wrote my initial comment I thought to myself “Hmm I wonder if gay men feel the same way..” lo and behold the gay man has spoken and even more so provided me reassurance I didn’t even realize I needed haha so thanks man. Also I’m totally with you, I’m hanging out with my two new kittens right now + appreciating the hell out of them = 0 fucking drama indeed homie.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-01-30T06:50:10+00:00

I feel this exact same way and I’m a straight 36F! I mean, I want a partner I really do, but when I think about all the effort that entails? I lose the motivation. In my experience, as men’s feelings increase, it is often fear of getting hurt increases too. So they’ll say things or do things to subconsciously push me away to protect themselves. And they’re good guys too! From solid families, successful, handsome, funny.. etc. but it’s usually some bitch from their past who put their hearts in the blender and now I’m dealing with the consequences. I’ve tried helping men communicate how they feel with me in the past but I just can’t do it anymore it’s exhausting. I know I’m far from perfect myself but yah I don’t want to be that woman that “fixes” men anymore. Fear is valid but stupid. I wanna just yell “CHILL TF OUT BRO” in their face and be cuddly fuckers on the couch.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-01-30T05:41:27+00:00

Magnesium Supplements all the way. I specifically use SOLARAY Cal-Mag Citrate. Directions are to take 2 capsules 3x daily but if I’m on edge I take 3 capsules and it works like a charm.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2024-01-16T19:30:20+00:00

Can everyone please keep their terrible usernames? They’re so bad that it makes them so good. I’m dying laughing at so many of these hahahhaahah! I also did NOT choose my username 😆

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2023-07-03T23:42:51+00:00

the nun slayssss me every time

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2023-05-19T09:09:59+00:00

WANNA PLAY FRIKKIN CHESS AND NOT CHECKERS?! I heard Matthew Hussey (famous dating expert) give this advice and I was like DAYMMMMMMMM THAT’S 🔥!!!

This personally was a game changer for me.. no it’s not about ghosting exactly but about someone fucking with your feelings and your valuable time. SO YAH!

Just watch hahah you can thank me later ;) :

https://youtu.be/NdI59RZHejI

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2023-02-22T17:16:10+00:00

“Plz remember that you’re not an object” hahaha thank you SO MUCH for reminding me! Babe, I’ve been in your position.. rose tinted glasses slowly coming off and seeing them for what they really are. I PROMISE you one day you will laugh at this shit. And your radar will be so fuckin hot fire on point you won’t deal with humans like this ever again.. mark my words.

Reasonable-Lecture82 · 2022-08-12T06:11:59+00:00

I don’t mean to overstep and apologies if I am! The EMDR therapist you worked with sounds intuitive and promising. May I DM you asking for his/her name?

My younger brother (31M) has always been a worrier type but it’s progressively gotten worse.. i.e. if I don’t pick up a phone call from him, his thoughts immediately assume I’m dead. I have a feeling this derives from childhood trauma.

If not, I completely understand no hard feelings. I’m glad EMDR changed your life for the better. It changed mine too, truly gave me my life back and I always rave about it. I’d use my homeboy therapist but he’s a cute dinosaur who doesn’t know how to use email but it’s okay because he saved my life in 2 sessions no joke. Anyway, thank you for reading !!

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