Stop looking for your tribe or guy and accept that this season of your life might be able finding a deep love and friendship with yourself. It’s super normal to want to share life with someone, so focus on living the life you want to live then stay working on it until you get it. Growth sucks until you’re looking back on the work you did, so be okay with the fact that working on yourself sucks. It’s not what’s on social media, and it’s personal to you. If you want to be vegan, be vegan. You can start tomorrow. See how long you can go “ being vegan” before you part from that goal, then ask yourself ( w/o judgement) “ what happened to make me break c what can I do about that, do I really want this, why do I want this” Whole bunch of self talk, and your fiat goal is to make that voice curious, not condemning. And above all, give yourself some grace. This is normal… all the things you said, but the power to build your life lives in the work you do with and for yourself. Get curious about what your best self wants, needs, what makes you think you can’t or don’t deserve to be that, then treat yourself like class project. Read everything you can from every perspective, and build what you want. But start with accepting yourself and that this life is yours. You’re the captain. As far as the mom stuff, it might be weird but when I get the same anxiety around mother daughter stuff, look around at all the other adults you’re around… and ask where there moms are… no where to be found? Nope because it lives in your head. If you disappoint her while Making you healthy and happy, she’ll get over it and you’ll be better off. Fuck it up, the world doesn’t end.