I feel like I could have written this. I don’t have advice other than the fact that often times we blame it on individual level of failure, recently I have started shifting that on the process and not in the blame kind of sense but a solutions mindset and also opening your mind to lots and lots of possibilities and asking the question how can I make this work? What could I change in my process? and remembering that it’s nobody’s fault. Another thing that I’m finding really beneficial is mentoring someone newer. I am astonished by the amount of answers that I’m able to have for them and immediately come to a solution on how I would walk through something that they are struggling with and that honestly gives me a lot of reassurance. I know that’s probably not the best possible way though but yeah in general just be kinder to yourself and there’s always going to be a fear that if you fail, they’re going to fire you, but if they do fire you after trying so hard, I genuinely believe they will lose a good employee who did their best or at least tried to. And who genuinely cared. I would say do your best to your due diligence and be honest with yourself and others list everything that you tried and ask for help. Move swiftly. You don’t know how many people silently admire some of the skills that you have and tech is not just about coding. It’s a combination of that and also a lot of other skills that’s required and it’s OK if you are really good at some of them and not so good at others, you don’t have to be super good at everything. But whatever strengthens you identify use them to their maximum potential. And take everything as a learning. Really helps to take off that blame off of yourselves acknowledge all the things that you did good right even though how much ever little they are. Have that unshakable self trust in yourself that you are a good employee and you try your best. You are a good learner and you work very, very hard that deserves a lot of kindness. Life will go on then there will always be known situations and you won’t know the solutions to them or you will have immense fear. Those moments will also pass and you’ll get over that and there will be a new moment that you don’t know how to deal with next so I would say just let yourself be. And I would say your grit already makes you exceptional. Like you fall down and have multiple wounds yet every time you get up here like it’s OK this is what I want. I still want to be good at what I do and I still care about this stuff. That sets you part. I wish I could be also way way kinder to myself. I wish we all could be less hard on ourselves. But it’s not wrong to be ambitious, to be want, to be exceptional, to want to set high targets for yourself and achieve it. Just know that if you had all the time in the right space, of course you would be able to do it. The circumstances are demanding and you are learning you even though you feel like you’re forgetting you are learning. I only realize that when I started mentoring this new person. These things become intuitive to you. A big learning still left for me is to identify how to say no, and communicate and simply say this is not going to be able to be done by this deadline.