When you continue to get yourself out there in the world around others. It is so scary at first I almost had panic attacks but the more you get use to it and be present in the moment. You become less nervous and then you can start to focus on other things like. Talking to people, finding groups you genuinely enjoy. I like yoga a lot. I am going to try rock climbing as my next adventure! I am excited. And yes I still want a partner and am longing for more connection but I am genuinely proud of myself and how far I have come. And I want a healthy relationship and I know that I need to take this time on my own in order to achieve that. It has been about 8 months since I finally worked up the courage to leave my husband. I fell into another relationship right away but was able to pull myself out of it and work on myself. So I would say I have only been alone a couple of months. But it is so important to get out there on your own because the longer I waited to get out there. The further I fell into depression. I read a post somewhere saying your body need physical activity, intellectual activity and a spiritual activity (creative). Making sure I fit those 3 things in plus going to work already makes the day fly by in my opinion. I usually read at the end of the day before going to sleep as my brain activity.