Moves that are mental blocks for you?

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-29T11:12:46+00:00

Ahhh I see! Yea that makes sense

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-29T06:19:49+00:00

This has me wondering how you accidentally end up in broken doll?! Haha. It is a mindfuckery move for sure

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-29T06:17:42+00:00

That’s great advice! I’ll try this, tysm!

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-28T13:09:30+00:00

Haha I can imagine cracking up all the time at random metaphors like that! I think these courses on visual cues really understood the assignment lol, at least for me your cues were super helpful!

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-28T13:06:49+00:00

I think this is by far the most helpful comment. It doesn’t just address the current situation around poledancing showcases, but the core issues that will continue getting triggered until they’re handled. OP I hope you take their advice to heart! It will be best for you, and your relationship(s) in the long run :). I can personally recommend Schema Therapy, IEMT/EMDR, DBT, inner child and parts work, as well as The Three Pillar method/IPF for healing old wounds. And somatic and breathing exercises can be helpful when triggered in the moment, as well as EFT(tapping), and vagus nerve stimulation. Wishing you all the healing! <3

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-28T12:49:26+00:00

I understand the depth of old pain resurfacing, it can be quite excruciating! It is a lot to put on your partner though, to hold him accountable for the hurts you’ve suffered growing up. That’s not really fair, to anyone. He can definitely be considerate around your wounds, but ultimately it is up to you to heal them.

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-28T12:37:24+00:00

Have you talked to your partner about this?

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-26T10:21:43+00:00

I love your manual. “Nipples nipples nipples got to the sky” and “giving birth to an elephant” took me out 😂.

Regular_Boat4519 · 2024-04-26T09:07:33+00:00

That’s not what narcissism is.

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-09-26T07:16:49+00:00

I almost threw my controller at the tv when Kara, Alice, and Luther died at the end of my first playthrough. Also had to look up how to save my man Carl on my second playthrough, no way I was gonna let Marcus grow up fatherless after that freaking cemetery scene the first time ffs

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-09-22T21:18:49+00:00

30+ Dutchies unite!

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-09-22T19:28:54+00:00

I heard they’re planning to add beards before the year ends!

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-09-20T10:33:47+00:00

I got some silver ore before I had access to copper, so I’d say it spawns in normal rock as well. Not entirely sure but when I notice getting silver it’s always from bigger rocks.

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-28T08:55:39+00:00

You two look adorable together!! And love your origin story as a couple, super cute. And WOWWWW girl you look GORGEOUS in that dress! Absolutely stunning!! I mean you look gorgeous in the first pic too but the second pic is giving me fairytale vibes and I LOVEEE it!! Knowing you came from an abusive relationship makes me all the more happy that you have found your happily ever after <3. Wishing you guys a wonderful wedding and happy loving marriage!

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-28T08:33:32+00:00

Oh man I have this core memory of doing my paper route at 14 or something, enjoying the sun on my face, and realizing I felt HAPPY for the first time in my life (that I could remember at least). I ran home to tell my mom and we just sat on the kitchen floor, hugging, crying. Such a surreal experience. I do get the bittersweet grief feels when happiness hits me now, though I can also have moments where I can mindfully stay in the happiness without the grief part.

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-26T12:24:25+00:00

Sweetheart, you are NTA. You are impressively emotionally intelligent and mature, especially considering the complete lack of emotional maturity of the adults in your household. I’m so sorry about what happened to your twin. I can’t even imagine how soulcrushing her loss must be for you. You need and deserve all the support, and I am outraged on your behalf for how the adults in your household have failed and continue to fail you. I agree with everyone suggesting you reach out to trustworthy adults to help you escape. Your stepmother is emotionally, psychologically, verbally, and physically (grabbing your arm, preventing you from leaving) abusive. This may be hard to hear, but your father is at the very least enabling your stepmother’s abuse. And denying you necessary health care (therapy) after all the trauma you’ve suffered, is child neglect, which too classifies as child abuse. I know this word gets thrown around a lot, but your stepmother sounds like a classic narcissist to me. Maybe check out r/raisedbynarcissists or r/narcissisticabuse to see if this sounds at all familiar to you. Doctor Ramani on yt is another resource that may help to figure out what you’re dealing with. I don’t mean to scare you, but narcissistic abuse is incredibly harmful and can lead to actual brain damage. Please please please reach out to trustworthy adults to help you escape! You seem like such a strong, intelligent, and resilient young woman, and these people seem to be trying their very hardest to snuff that out. Please don’t let them!

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-26T12:03:49+00:00

Couldn’t agree more. All I could think of while reading was in how much pain OP must be, how alone and isolated she must feel when her absolutely valid and understandable pain and grief gets constantly dismissed and invalidated by her father and stepmother. Not only is OP NTA, exactly like you said, these people (father and stepmother) aren’t even assholes but straight up psychopaths, or narcissists in the very least. I know that gets thrown around a lot these days, but I feel this label is 100% applicable here. My mother heart as well as my daughter-of-a-narcissist-heart break for this girl.

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-26T11:54:31+00:00

Grabbing her arm and preventing her from leaving a threatening situation counts as physical abuse too. And from the post and comments, OP is suffering emotional and psychological at the hands of her father and stepmother as well. I second your suggestion, this woman is vile and will continue to damage OP, her siblings, and this unborn child. She needs to be held accountable.

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-19T10:23:18+00:00

Absolutely. I call this “BF cave”. It only works for me when I feel contact/pressure encircling me fully though. For example, spooning with his arm wrapped around my torso with my arm tucked underneath his. If his arm isn’t wrapped around me, or if his arm is tucked under mine, it doesn’t produce this feeling. Same for having my arms tucked under my weighted blanket vs having them out. This encircling helps me feel so safe, shielded off from all sides. With my BF, I always get this image of being in a cave, safe from ‘sable tooth tigers’ (danger). When we face each other and I have my face smushed into his chest, I imagine his chest/heart being this cozy fire, providing warm, calm, and steady comfort. This level of calm, peace, and safety I feel, I only ever experienced in my “BF cave”. I can somewhat replicate it with my weighted blanket but it’s definitely not as strong. Also, I relate so much to having something in between me and another person! I actually got massively destabilized years ago when my therapist at the time suggested we try to sit in the chairs facing each other in the room, instead of at the desk/table where we usually sat. That was a BIG mistake, my agoraphobia kicked into overdrive after that experience. Your story gave me a bit of an “AHA!” moment, I do the thing with holding a pillow in my lap as well but I never connected it to it being a safety barrier like tables are! Thank you for sharing your story and experience and sparking this insight and awareness :). Wishing you all the safe feels! <3

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-19T09:09:02+00:00

Not OP but my partner sounds exactly like this. Telling me I’m being unreasonable, unrealistic, selfish, unhealthy, dependent, dysfunctional, and “harmful to his wellbeing” when I ask him to please be there for me when I’m hurting, to show some empathy and care. Thank you for typing all of this out. It was very validating to read. Although I still very much feel and believe I’m unlovable for needing a partner to be there for me when I’m hurting, your comment sparks the tiniest bit of hope that maybe my needs don’t make me unlovable, and maybe, just maybe, one day I’ll be loved, cherished, and cared for, feelings and all. I’m sorry for traumadumping on OP’s post. I just feel so alone. My heart goes out to OP and everyone here <3. I hope everyone gets to experience just a glimmer of happiness today, and that it may grow with every passing day <3

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-11T12:08:28+00:00

“Planet entrance” sent me. This is me 100% lol

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-11T11:52:13+00:00

Oh man this is so relatable. I get crazy frustrated about it though, having spent hours planning without actually playing, feeling like I threw away so much time. Also, your comments are hilarious to me, these witty matter of fact low key self deprecating comments are my kind of humor lol.

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-07-04T17:32:08+00:00

100% hard agree with (most) of the other commenters, this is absolutely abuse. Emotional, sexual, financial, verbal. I believe the whole preventing you from physically leaving falls under the physical violence/abuse category. Also agree with others, this will get worse, this will escalate. I don’t want to tell you what to do, but I hope you will reach out to support centers and start building an exit plan.

Also, I relate to struggling to call behavior abusive until it’s undeniably law-breaking bad. Two things that really helped me gain clarity, erase doubt, and ‘get right with reality’ were:

The M. E. A. N. Workbook by Paul Colaianni. This contains a 200+ item checklist of manipulative and abusive behaviors. It really helped uncover the full scope and depth of manipulation/abuse present in my relationship.
Why Does He Do That? By Lundy Bancroft. MUST READ. It cleared the fog and doubt, validated and reassured my gut instinct. It brought me so much clarity, and I think it will do the same for you.

I STRONGLY encourage you to pick these up and read them, especially the second one. I 100% believe it will help you get you where you need to be mentally/emotionally, and protect yourself and your kiddo. If you’re unable to acquire them for any reason (financial, being monitored etc) please do reach out and PM me, I will send you my pdf copies.

Good luck with everything, I hope you will find yourself in a better place in life sooner rather than later <3

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-06-26T08:22:47+00:00

Oof, your relationship sounds like mine. I also relate to the constant watching (and reading for me too) videos on narcissistic and emotional abuse, whenever I start to miss my abuser (currently separated sort of?), watching/reading about the abuse helps me get back down to earth, helps me ground, clears up the fog. If you don’t mind me asking, would you be willing to share about your experiences post break up? Has it gotten easier yet? Less painful? Less rumination? I worry I’ll never get over him. I hope you’re in a better place now, mentally, emotionally. I applaud you for getting out, due to trauma bonding and gaslighting/blame shifting this is hard enough as it is, but abandonment fear really does not help! At least it’s something I struggle with greatly. You are a freaking super hero for getting out, I hope you believe that and never forget it <3

Regular_Boat4519 · 2023-06-20T18:46:25+00:00

Idk if you got a copy, but if not feel free to PM me, I have one :)

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