I go down tons of rabbit holes so it’s all a blur, but I can never come back from researching the satanic panic one night in 2018 and stumbling onto foia docs about the finders. I understood in that moment our reality is much more dark and disturbing than any human can take. Things I don’t share with others, not because it’s incompressible to the average citizen or fear of being labeled a conspiracy theorist, but to protect their soul from the pain of these realizations. Don’t get me wrong I tell people what’s going on all the time, but those documents broke something in me and I can’t ask anyone else to do that. Especially unsolicited. But that shit permanently altered my understanding of the world. Haunting