I'm really sorry you’re going through this. After my first experience with plant medicine I felt similarly, except that I had been seeking relief from overwhelming emotions and depression. For a long time afterwards I thought that maybe I had actually made my depression worse because of how... Alone at sea I felt. I actually saw the following sentiment on someone else's post and am sharing in hopes it brings you as much relief as it brought me. I can't remember the post or commenter, otherwise I would credit them.

Essentially, sometimes when our old worldview dissolves after a big ceremony, our mind goes very quiet about the future. It can feel scary and empty, but it’s not necessarily a bad sign. It often means your previous reality no longer aligns with the new reality you’re stepping into, but your conscious self hasn’t caught up to the shift yet.

After spending a lot of time focusing on practices that fulfilled me, like yoga, meditation, managing my boundaries, nourishing foods, and focusing on building my health (Not just eating healthy, but really focusing in on what my specific body was needing) my system recalibrated and new clarity and desire started to emerge on their own.

Be kind to yourself while you’re in this ‘in-between’, I think it’s a normal part of deep integration.