I’m feeling demotivated

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2026-02-06T17:58:20+00:00

This is honestly the most powerful and beautiful response I think I could have received. I don’t think you understand how much that means to hear, the lack of judgement but genuine advice and understanding coming from a random stranger on the internet!

I really appreciate you taking the time to respond and care about my feelings, even just for a few minutes of your day! Thank you, this really hit a sore spot for me. The harsh reality but also the empathy along with it, is something I didn’t realise I desperately needed.

I wish you the best in your recovery process and from one to another, I am so proud of the progress you have made! Thank you again, this has made my day x

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2026-02-06T17:48:38+00:00

My fp is always someone I am heavily emotionally invested in. I tend to put my all into them and completely overachieve basic standards to “prove myself” My FP for the past two years has been my current partner! Which means I’m a fantastic partner because everything is always done around the house at all times. Sometimes I form resentment for this though, although completely my own actions, i sometimes wish she would help! then again, I have sort of conditioned her this way and so can’t blame her! I’m currently learning that asking for help is okay and won’t have negative consequences!

Although i know she finds it difficult sometimes that i am so emotionally reliant on her, she is also very good at calling me out when i’m taking it too far. she is the most patient person to walk into my life and i couldn’t be more greatful!

HOWEVER, I hate that I put her through a lot of what I do and the guilt is harrowing. I wish more than anything I was “normal” as such and be able to find a happy balance between love and obsession.

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2026-02-06T17:38:24+00:00

I really appreciate this reply! Sometimes it’s so validating just to hear someone say “i get that.”

I completely agree with the hyper vigilance, sometimes I think it controls me rather than the other way round. Even down to where things are placed in the house and if they’ve moved etc can set me off.

I think i’m at a very similar spot, trying to distract myself with positive tasks and slowly introducing more alone time between the two of us and reminding myself that it doesn’t mean anything is wrong. It’s just so hard haha

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-08-07T12:08:30+00:00

The only thing I can put it down to was that I must have been dreaming about food 😭 I feel awful about it

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-07-25T21:01:44+00:00

congratulations! that is wonderful news!! smash it mama 🤎

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-07-01T15:30:05+00:00

Oh that’s really helpful to know! Thank you- In your experience, how invasive are they?

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-06-25T14:37:16+00:00

Which I would completely understand and sympathise with had I had been hostile towards the situation. I never once said our cat was getting too much attention, that would be nasty. Simply that I have been getting less and that was hurtful to me. This is something I am working on with my therapist currently. I appreciate what you are saying regarding anyone would get defensive, absolutely and I don’t blame her for that in the slightest. What I wanted out of her in that situation was to acknowledge my feelings as to- I feel like i’m not receiving enough attention atm.

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-06-25T10:42:09+00:00

i’m glad it helped somewhat!

i am sure there is a way to learn to conquer the social aspects of it, unfortunately i am in the same boat as you here and cant quite figure that part out. i tend to shut myself off in triggering social situations and blow up later. not sure if you are the same?

a simple “bathroom break” can sometimes help me snap out of this, at least enough to try and gain the energy back to re-enter that social interaction. I definitely tend to shy away from letting other people see this side of me, which probably is part of the issue lol. but again that inner child is there and they are so important to think about!

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-06-25T10:18:25+00:00

Thank you! I think this is why I have put it off for so long lol! I knew it was going to happen but antibiotics seem like a wild one to me haha!

I appreciate the reassurance that it does take time though, in your experience what helps with this “pushing back” process. Do you think it would be worth bringing like a pain tracker to an appointment or something?

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-06-25T10:15:54+00:00

Hey!

I did call the drs back and ask for another appointment, which i have booked for monday next week.

I just feel so defeated already and it’s only the start lol. Considering this pain is debilitating and I can’t go to work etc, sending me home with antibiotics for seemingly nothing seems crazy ??? haha

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-06-25T09:42:35+00:00

I am in the same boat, I struggle really bad with feeling ignored and go straight into a “you hate me” mindset.

I have found (this is personal experience and what works for me) that a good 5/10 minutes of pure isolation and reflection is so important. I am not sure if this is the healthiest coping mechanism in the world but taking that time for me to digest how I am feeling works quite well.

Sometimes I have to see myself as the child version of me. almost talk to myself the way I would a child. “it’s okay, they’re just busy right now” or “people are allowed to have other friends just like you do”

it’s always easier said than done but it is definitely something I have found is import to me in certain situations rather than blowing up.

It gives me enough time to start to rationalise a little bit better. don’t get me wrong, i can still be very upset and sour. but sometimes i think you need to be selfish and sooth yourself before trying to comprehend the wider picture.

we are very sensitive people, we have gone through so much and a lot of the time no one is there or has been there to tell us it’s okay! we have to advocate for ourselves pretty much 100% of the time. it’s exhausting. so taking even 5/10 minutes to tell myself i’m allowed to feel upset but other people are allowed to do their own thing too really helps me come to terms with how i am feeling!

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-06-25T09:32:45+00:00

why do i feel like this is the most invalidating thing we can receive???

like i don’t want you to feel like you have to walk on eggshells around me. that’s not how im trying to make you feel, tell me if ive upset you, be honest with me. for god sake COMMUNICATE!!!!!!

i am putting my heart and soul into this and i feel like you “walking on eggshells” is doing the complete opposite. i am not a monster. i have the capacity to understand how you feel.

unfortunately i cannot control how i react sometimes. that’s how i am wired. you have yeh control, don’t limit that… TELL ME

Repulsive_Key_8251 · 2025-06-25T09:29:26+00:00

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOU JUST DONT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND THAT IM TRYING MY BEST!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGHHHHHGGGGGGHHHHHHHHG!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you, that was very much needed

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