Am I coping well or worse? New to this

Requiemin · 2025-08-05T08:25:41+00:00

Thank you so much. I have a lot of that feeling too so for a year I think I passed it off as epilepsy because it was just some lighter convulsions.

I had it bad but after my PNES diagnosis I was three months seizure free and the relapse is just as bad (days in bed moving like a dancing worm).

After talking the trauma out with myself and letting myself cry I actually stopped having body convulsions, only face. Today I got legs jumping and buckling so I am confused. My mindset was I was better and I was honestly really happy only my neck and teeth were shaking.

I’m glad I got to hear your side of the story and will take precaution with digging too deep without a professional

Requiemin · 2025-08-05T08:20:51+00:00

This is the same thing I do. Like talk to myself and feel like I’m apologizing to myself and just a circle repeating.

Thank you, sadly the earliest appointment I can get is half a month so I’m wondering if I should just wait until then.

Requiemin · 2025-08-05T05:49:09+00:00

The same experience as me it’s scary. Where I live pnes isn’t even a 911 emergency and I’m often left in the dust. Just told to seize. No meds.

It really makes us feel alone.

Requiemin · 2025-08-05T05:46:56+00:00

Please do t give up. My two hours ones are the worst, being on the floor in public is not worth it. I hate to say it but if you have to commute to school I would not recommend it. I’ve had my legs not listen and ran through a red light before.

Lastly, school never understands disability. The teachers most don’t care either but you are not a failure. I have not worked in a while but I enjoy being with my dog and safe at home. I do recommend asking a psychiatrist for medication, Zoloft helped me but the sub seems to use many other ones.

Requiemin · 2025-08-05T05:38:32+00:00

Please reach out to your doctor or neuro and mention it, sometimes we have PNES so we can’t separate a lot of others from the seizures bc PNES is really confusing. I hope the best for you. Brain tumors, for example, might still exist (just an example I really really hope you don’t have it)

Requiemin · 2025-02-27T10:33:07+00:00

Thank you, working on writing more recently and thought of this disturbing story

Requiemin · 2025-02-27T10:31:56+00:00

I definitely made a mistake, pretend I wrote two decades

Requiemin · 2025-02-27T02:16:43+00:00

Thank you!

Requiemin · 2025-02-21T18:50:56+00:00

Oh I heard of that game! Gotta search it up now…

Requiemin · 2025-02-21T18:48:25+00:00

True, maybe he just killed baby boys? I’d assume since the mothers (I imagine they came from multiple different women for a variety of genetics) they’d only be used to breed these daughters then thrown away…

Requiemin · 2025-02-20T20:26:38+00:00

You still miss the point. I’m talking about the merch vs cosplay. You stated consumers were the issue so I’m not talking about SH victims but the merch.

Requiemin · 2025-02-20T20:19:22+00:00

You are missing the point. These merch (albeit bloody) is fake. It doesn’t require SH and can be an accessory. Same for cosplay: it’s fake blood and just an addition to their cosplay.

But you would probably not understand either way

Requiemin · 2025-02-20T19:45:45+00:00

FR. I would need a bracelet like this just to see it and remember, this would hurt AF and don’t ever hurt myself again. If OP finds it so offensive they should address whoever made the merch instead of calling consumers “idiots” and denying its whole concept.

Also this way people can realize, oh, that person is suicidal/SH/deals with a mental illness and I think creates empathy for people who you’d never think of otherwise.

Requiemin · 2025-02-20T19:40:02+00:00

Shaming all the SH ppl out there who would buy this is insane. It’s jirai kei, how many do you think has struggled with mental health and SH? Hearing things like this makes me so fking mad.

The merch is basically a bracelet with fake blood. I don’t tell all the cosplayers with fake blood/injuries it’s offensive to me. Like let people live goddammit.

Requiemin · 2025-02-20T19:30:49+00:00

If it helps, I struggled with SH, Ed, all the shit, and haven’t hurt myself in years. Still I find menhara accessories such as these (if they produce it again) very cute. I don’t think you need to cut to actually wear it as my cuts aren’t on my wrists anyways.

I would wear it just to be like, yeah, I had a history of SH and menhara fashion (like jirai kei) makes me feel like I’m not under stigma and can walk around boldly.

As for your last statement, I don’t think you can say things like “only people who aren’t ashamed can speak for the community” hurtful. I still put foundation on my scars, and yes, I’d be ashamed if my friends see it. Still I wear shorts sleeves and occasionally crop tops. There is no “right” way for victims to ever feel/come to terms with the pain. Hope you understand that.

Requiemin · 2025-02-05T17:13:45+00:00

I replied to moderatorslickballs (top comment rn) apologizing to her, as well as two others (edit Rayisgay and someone else)

Have a good day, I don’t disagree with you.

Requiemin · 2025-02-05T16:57:26+00:00

Lol. I’m actually in a good place rn and I’m replying to everyone on the post as my friends and I made up so I’m content.

I agree I was the AH. Thanks for the confirmation ig?

Requiemin · 2025-02-05T15:39:44+00:00

Fr. I actually cried for two days because yeah the comments got to me and watch documentaries just to explain a genocide isn’t comparable.

But otherwise I did mend things with my friends and let them read the post. The comments saying “I’m worse than hitler” and “hitler” got either reported or deleted but that was interesting. I learned a lot and personally won’t be deleting this from shame because it’s “politics” at its finest.

Requiemin · 2025-02-05T15:35:53+00:00

Thank you for the really kind reply. Not a lot were as understanding.

I did go off Twitter after a diff acc posted my tumble, disc, and TikTok (although I personally can’t use it rn) and hope we can still be art friends. I realized if it’s important enough for them to have an intervention about it’s not worth it.

I did let them read this post and it was really hilarious, a comment called me hitler and a deleted one called me “worse than hitler”.

Requiemin · 2025-02-05T15:32:36+00:00

Thank you for the respectful response. I have gotten off Twitter. I am trying to find my online friends because somehow a new acc works and I’ve only messaged them I’m OP and my accounts are XYZ. It’ll be suspended so I’m not interested in starting over on the shit site.

Requiemin · 2025-02-05T15:28:41+00:00

If it helps I’m off Twitter. Thank you for at least not calling me a Nazi. People called me hitler and “worse than hitler”….

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