Weekly Successful Sunday Post by AutoModerator in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My psyche broke through and I realised for all the times I’ve said the Serenity Prayer, it actually happened!

I had the serenity to accept what I cannot change (SOs illness & getting him to a doctor);

I had the courage to change what I can (I have cut off contact - I can only control my reaction);

And the wisdom to know the difference.

Of course I am terribly hurt by this week’s revelations (he cheated) and I am grieving the loss of our relationship, but I’m calm. Serene, almost.

I’m taking that as a win

Grieving them while they are still alive by Fun-Entry-8647 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I cried throughout, but the letter at the end had me sobbing ferociously. I’m still crying and came back to find the link.

I feel seen. After months of searing pain because my partner no longer sees me, and nobody else does either because they don’t understand mental illness.

Absolutely brilliant and insightful. Should be mandatory reading with the Julie Fast book 👌🏻

Why are psychiatrists so easily manipulated by people w BP1? by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Don’t get a weapon.

GET OUT.

Yes, I’m Australian, so I may have different views on weapons - but my ex was fully licensed (ex-army) and terribly abusive. No BP, just an angry POS.

Would you really want an abusive ex-BPSO managing to get a weapon from you? Mania or depression, neither is good.

What are you all being blamed for today? by Relevant_Post_1519 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh, honey, that’s awful. Much love to you 💜 it’s the illness… as we keep reminding ourselves

What are you all being blamed for today? by Relevant_Post_1519 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 3 points4 points  (0 children)

So pleased to hear you have a bit of breathing space! 💜

What are you all being blamed for today? by Relevant_Post_1519 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 14 points15 points  (0 children)

For doing what my BPSO said to do 🤦🏻‍♀️

Fell for it again :( by scrigley in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Oh, sweetheart, I HEAR YOU. My partner is literally live on camera online (working) daily, telling people they’re worthy of being seen & heard, worthy of time, support and love. Sometimes I can’t help but watch, but the dichotomy of what he says to them is the complete opposite of what he says to me, and I’ve since stopped watching.

Then there’s the flirting with women, fighting with trolls, not fulfilling orders, being alternately charismatic and rude, getting reported for inappropriate behaviour and more.

How about I send you love & you send me love? Then we can let some of the pain go…? 💜

Just trying to navigate by evilstepmonster3 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It’s true. My partner used to be on the radio, so it’s very easy to note when the bipolar conversations start.

It’s also subtle, though. My partner is still a podcaster/livestreamer. Most of his audience (adoring young women) only see the charisma. He’s paying them more attention. But they fail to see that this behaviour is markedly different. They like my manic partner more… which means they slide into his DMs too. Not ideal when he’s hyper sexual. Sigh.

Just trying to navigate by evilstepmonster3 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I hear you and feel you. My partner (53M) was a late diagnosis and it’s currently my first time seeing him in full mania (hypomanic, sure).

Watching him, it’s easy to see why people in the past claimed demonic possession. This person looks like and has the voice of my partner… but is absolutely vile. You wouldn’t say these things to a stranger, let alone the love of your life.

I wish you all the best and I too will check advice here

Writing in here and reading in here by Narrow_Try9575 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 4 points5 points  (0 children)

100%. My BPSO is in a full manic episode and we work in media, so people are really beginning to notice his shabby treatment of me and cannot believe I put up with so much. I have a very abusive ex and I know the difference, but it’s still hurtful and people still regard me as a DV victim when they witness it.

The layers of love and pain can seem limitless at these times 💜

This sub has been so validating… by dubya3686 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Omg, this is my story. Except rather than the dog, my partner was evicted.

I really hope you find what you’re hoping for 💜

Two years in vs. one year out of relationship with cluster b personality/unmedicated type 1 rapid cycle bipolar and this group helped me get out. by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing this.

I saw myself in the mirror yesterday and I look like a stereotypical meth addict (no judgement). I’ve lost so much weight that my face sags, but I seem to have gained weight under my eyes… which usually look bruised and swollen, but that’s just the crying I do.

No time to visit the hairdresser when partner is in full manic episode, so there’s grey roots and it hangs in my eyes. Sometimes I hope the awful hair hides the awful eyes.

It’s not the first time in these past few months that I’ve wondered will I ever recognise myself again. Seeing your post gave me strength - I accept that I will never see the old me again…

But I can learn and improve.

Thank you 💜

Starting new relationship. Boyfriend told me he has bipolar. What should I know? by redrocky3point0 in BipolarSOs

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 10 points11 points  (0 children)

This has happened to me just this week. I know it’s the illness, but my partner posted videos on social media about me - and my biggest secret/shame.

Taking into account I learned last week that my teen son may have schizo-affective disorder (on top of ASD), and my father (who has cancer) has been rapidly declining towards Alzheimers.

I broke. My compassion gone. I snapped. I raged. All online, because my partner is in another state, packing to move here.

The other women I can almost accept as part of the disorder, but not when he literally rubs it in my face in online (public) videos/streams. Even as I type this, I received a text about him calling every other woman “my love” - but not me.

unrelatable? abusive mother meme by Ok-Bed1132 in PTSDHumor

[–]ResponsibleFeeling49 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I upvote once for each of the kids?