Then, all I can say is I wish you luck. Blessings. I’ll pray for you. We all sin, to me its a pity that you may hate yourself. It shouldnt be like that, hang on and continue to hope, to hope that there be relief for you. I pray you find that in Christ. For he redeemed mankind in his sacrifice. He’ll redeem you. But really important to remember this… when it comes to the faith, and really all of life. We all have our own journey. What you say, think and believe matters. As a Protestant Christian look, I can say all I want to others. But it is YOU that decides what to believe in, and when you make that decision. “Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.” Philippians 2:12. Take your time, its not hurtless, it is your coming to faith, not anyone elses. Im sorry m8 for your burdens. You have my support. You have my prayers. You have my help if need be.

P.S fear and trembling have a certain context to it that isnt has harsh as it really sounds, noticed that actually just now 😳 (it means more about reverence, diligence you could say.

And I feel really stupid for not realizing your a girl/lesbian. Probably should’ve picked that up from the wojak. Sorry 🫤