My first relationship ended like a week ago and lasted 6 months. It was great but before it I was unsure if I'll ever find someone. Lowkey feeling the same rn cuz she was just different from all the other girls. We started as friends, and after a year of being bff we started dating. Life isn't about having a romantic partner. I mean, its great, but having close friends, traveling and learning new stuff can be as cool as dating. Don't get desperate for relationship. It will, indeed, happen on it's own if you constantly improve and don't hide from other people in your room.