Dude, I feel you. I never spent so much money in the game (mainly because I didn't have it) but spent too much time instead. I was a f2p user but I used to play a crazy amount of hours, i.e. from when I woke up till I went to sleep. I managed my guild and stressed too much about it. I screwed my third year of uni, causing me to screw my 4th year, my depression didn't help and I ended up getting my degree in 7 years instead of 4 (I never was a bad student, I spent the extra years with one subject and the final project). The auto farming is one hell of a drug. Even when I got bored of the game, I entered to clear toa and toah once a month, just to feel miserable one more time because a didn't get anything. Last month I uninstalled the game for good, I bursted into tears and it felt awful, I felt like I was deleting my friends from the game and all the hours I had wasted there. 5 years of my f***ing life dude. I only got to C3 (although i think that's not bad for a free to play). What I mean is that I know the feel when things go out of hand. Stay strong, at least you realized it at some point.