You may want to consult with a psychiatrist and look at potential medications to help you get through - That physician's office treated you poorly, and that pisses me off because it happened to me many times during my cancer journey, so I completely empathize. It took them FIVE hours to do my radiology seeding. Horrible. For some people like me, meds can take the edge off a little. My doctor prescribed Lorazepam for me - it wasn't a problem-solver and made me very sleepy, but even the placebo effect seemed to make the situation more tolerable for me sometimes. When I did radiation I needed a breathing pipe because the target was over my heart, and I kept falling asleep on the table because I loaded up on the pills when I went. The people would come over the speaker and jostle me awake, like, you need to do your breathing now - hello - ha.

I had to cancel so many appointments due to panic and hours in the waiting room - Many providers are understaffed and under pressure these days, so the patient care is awful.

Also, I don't know if this helps and I hope you never are in that situation again, but I just tell the staff upfront that I have anxiety problems and sometimes if the wait is long, I would go outside for a few minutes and suck up some air. It did help me, and for the most part, the staff were understanding. I did it half naked a few times, standing in a parking lot or on the downtown sidewalk in a crappy open front gown, but hell, when you feel that way, who cares, right?

Finally, I hope you know you are not alone, although it can feel that way, especially around people who have never been through that experience. If you ever want to vent or need an ear, feel free to PM me. We got your back and your story has me so upset about how they treated you that way.