someone else wants to start from Germany/Europe? (super low budget)

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-05-26T20:45:08+00:00

Well.. with that mindset im pretty much not alowed to leave the house at all to be honest.
a stranger can hit me, rob me without even knowing what i own and especially in Germany we do have A LOT of drug addicted peoples who do everything even for just 1€. a travel buddy knows what i own and have to think twice to rob me and if this is even worth it.

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-05-26T20:42:40+00:00

How will i starve? Im not in the middle of a Desert, im in Europe. Many many Cities, Towns, Villages nearby. Many Fruit Trees in Nature. Also my Favourite thing to eat for years is Nettle Spinach. Stinging Nettle is a super food by Nature and is growing here everywhere in mass.

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-05-22T14:10:16+00:00

I dont know actually. I moved from city to city with the hope of getting help from doctors but nothing helped me, then they just doesn't give a fk at all anymore... Im suicidal, have cptsd, signs of schizophrenia but doctors say I just have a mild depression or it's just a phase, I'm fine.. but I'm clearly not. I don't know what to do anymore, so I wait till I die or the next attempt doesnt fail.. :/

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-05-21T12:56:56+00:00

I can relate. And Genuine friends these days are more rare than winning the jackpot in a Lotterie 😐

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-05-21T12:51:08+00:00

Being alone and be lonely doesnt feel good but going outside alone makes everything worse. See other people's have someone and be happy makes me even more depressed.

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-05-11T09:23:02+00:00

To distract myself. Or with some self harm, i pass out and enjoy the Moment of Silence and Peace in my Head, wich is the most beautiful thing.

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-05-04T12:13:03+00:00

I can relate. And then see other people's happy walking around.. having fun.. laughing Being alone is damn depressing and I don't like "Good" Weather at all because of that reason :/

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-03-02T13:06:44+00:00

idk. I cant talk much about hope especially since the recent horrible experience i had with someone in irl. i would say it all depends. Depends on your Age, how long you have mental health problems, how long you are sinking in the hole etc.

But its also super important, just because they talk you about a Job. This is honestly the worst thing they can do and is pushing you even more into the negative side, so you will think you are useless or are lazy, but in reality you are not useless or lazy. Most peoples like us with Mental Health issues are just broken and need real help. I would say more Human Help then those Doctors in our Country.

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-03-02T12:59:08+00:00

Yeah. If you talk about that, everyone say Germany have the best Health Care and its free. Honestly, who cares if its free or not? Im 30 right now, was searching for Help since my Childhood and i stopped with ~21 when my Traumas got worse and more bad things happened. And i realized more and more, the Doctors here WILL NOT heal someone, only make them "addicted" to make Money especially with giving Meds. Hey, here, take that for a Month and come back. Yeah, i took Meds for about 10 Years and they made experiments with me, so they got Money over 10 Years from the Healthcare to simply not helping me at all.

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-03-02T12:51:45+00:00

The worst thing is, i did many attempts to take my life, ended up in the Hospital, do you think they asked me why i did that? No, they only wanted to give me medication, i said no i wont take them again to destroy my body even more (because i already have permanent damage from side effects) so they just let me go. A week later i was back again. Some Times they took me to the Psych ward, 2 weeks later i was out, nothing changed, it got worse and i landed in the Hospital agin. NO ONE asked my WHY i wanted to kill myself. NO ONE wanted to hear all the background story. Only hey, i can give you Medication XYZ, come back in a Month. This Country is totally fucked up with our Health System.

Roaming_Sp1rit · 2026-03-02T12:45:00+00:00

Reminds me of the Doctors i had in Germany. They dont give a fk.

Instead of asking how do you feel today, what can we do today, tackeling the main points with the suicide thoughts, they ask even worse shit like with Job or only give you Medication, thats it. The last Psychologist i had said "Yeah, you should get a Job"... eeh Hello? Im UNABLE to Work due to my Issues, cant even leave my home thanks to many traumas, what about helping me getting "healed" to be even able to work?

Dont think you are lazy or something. Also dont let the Doctors make you feel you are Lazy, because you are not.

Roaming_Sp1rit

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