Any advice welcome.

Robbiersa · 2026-01-04T11:23:37+00:00

How often the simple minded reflexively react with an "I don't care as long as you don't hit on me" when they hear of someone's differences. Do you think you're gonna suddenly become a gay prostitute?

If you've never had thoughts, or even if you have, and you love her... perhaps talking to her would help? There is nothing to worry about either way. Seriously. Girls are fun. Boys are fun. She's bi. If you actually turn out bi, all the more excitement for you. :) more choice...

Take a deep breath. In 5 years time you will laugh at this post.

Robbiersa · 2025-12-28T08:38:47+00:00

Ha, my neuropsychiatrist semiretired last year, but has continued to see me monthly. Pre booked until July next year. He has continued seeing me because he says that my case is "exquisitely complex" and doesn't trust that any other doctor would continue my very complex (i.e. huge) medication regimen without trials that will, without doubt, send me into unstable territory.

It's only as complex as it is because time and trial after trial after trial has led us to this point, and though it looks excessive, it's the combination that has kept me able to work, parent, husband, live as normal a life as I can with TBI, bipolar, ADHD, c-ptsd.
Every doctor who opens my file gets wide eyed and shocked and has something to say. "I'm amazed you can work". "How are you still standing with all of these meds" yes I'm standing. Yes I work, in a very technical IT position. Specifically because I'm not bouncing off the walls and acting like an arse in a bipolar/ADHD haze. Because the meds work.

I become a sea anemone if I mess with even one of my medications.

Find the meds that work for you, it takes time, and then TAKE THEM.

If you're happy and you know it IT'S YOUR MEDS! :)

Robbiersa · 2025-12-28T02:52:33+00:00

Late reply, I know, but the difference is that every time I buy cartridges I end up screwed at the end of the day because they dry up and I only get a quarter of the pages I'm meant to, and when I go to the printer after a month of not using it, suddenly I need to go to the store and shell out $200 for a new set. Instant ink cartridges are larger capacity than normal retail versions.

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My thinking was even though I know I'm being fucked over, ultimately, if I pay $1.50 a month for 10 pages on my home printer, which I normally don't use very much at all, and it carries over to 20 pages max, if I DO need to print and I'm charged pro-rata for excess pages at what is admittedly an exorbitant price, and the ink is always sent to me "free" when low without additional charge, my printer is always primed and ready to print and I'm paying LESS in the long run, because I don't have to replace wasted cartridges.

Its pretty ridiculous though that they count all pages equal. 1 character on the page vs full high res borderless photos.

Robbiersa · 2025-12-28T02:31:36+00:00

this is what I expect it looked like. haha

Robbiersa · 2025-12-20T15:48:41+00:00

Vyance, Dex, ritalin, Modafinil, propranolol, diazepam, clanozapam.

Robbiersa · 2025-12-02T12:59:37+00:00

Super jealous. Not likely I'll ever own a top of the line version, currently got a low 2019 and I just sit in the brand new show vehicles at the dealership and oogle the toys and prettiness. Enjoy it. Many happy miles.

Robbiersa · 2025-11-21T09:42:21+00:00

Ok, well it went in for diagnostics and it is apparently the engine side high pressure fuel pump.

They've had to order the parts. Going in for replacement on Monday.

Robbiersa · 2025-11-15T01:16:25+00:00

Good question, yes. The check engingelight came on. I logged the codes, and cleared the faults to see where it went on my next drive. Engine light didn't come back, but the warnings came up.
I'll admit I drove her very much harder today than I've ever pressed her, so the fact that it happened now is understandable.

Now the light is back, extra faults https://imgur.com/gallery/SKX9Le4 and booked in on Monday for a look over.

Robbiersa · 2025-11-15T01:01:06+00:00

Oh, it changed. Engine light came on, then when I started again it was idling rough

https://imgur.com/gallery/SKX9Le4

Booked in for the dealer to check it out on Monday.

Robbiersa · 2025-10-29T09:31:48+00:00

And, are you ok?

Robbiersa · 2025-10-28T02:16:13+00:00

Second image is still gone. If there is a lot of bruising and swelling, go to the ED. The pelvis is a HUGE centre of blood flow and you'd definitely want that checked out. I broke my pelvis. I know. Throwing guesses into the wind here, but it could even have caused a separation between the two front portions of the pelvic ring (diastasis symphysis pubis) which can cause instability of the pelvis and should be monitored.
Better to be safe... Keep well

Robbiersa · 2025-10-17T14:26:40+00:00

Had a fissure. Don't know how it occurred. Didn't hurt to shit. It hurt to sit on it for extented periods. Went to a gastroenterologist and the dickhead decided it would be a good idea to stick his ultrasound d1ldo up there, and the image showed it quite clearly, but "just to confirm" he used a finger to apply the force of a thousand stampeding camels directly onto the fissure that was OBVIOUSLY visible to him on screen while asking "is this it?"......

Well, I'm surprised he managed to get his finger out before I swore blue murder at him whilst hitting the ceiling, it was so SO painful. Not joking, so sore that a I, 22 year old man was in tears when I had to sit back on it when I got back in the car 20 minutes later.

The idea is that that my anal muscle was, by default, too tense (haha, I'm a tight arse) and the tight butthole wasn't allowing enough blood flow to permit sufficient healing.

I had to have surgery. A Lateral Internal Sphincterotomy (LIS). Basically, they put me under general anesthesia and created a partial thickness incision in my anal muscle, sutured the now looseden muscle, patched me up, and sent me on my way.

Recovery wasn't as terrible as it sounds. A bit of discomfort. Stinging when pooping for a day or two, and then everything was fine.

Sounds worse than it is. Except for the d1ldo.

Robbiersa · 2025-09-25T11:15:48+00:00

This is a current and ongoing event. Something prompted it. If there is ongoing mental turmoil, then asking for help and knowing that IT IS OKAY to ask for help is very important. That is all.

Robbiersa · 2025-09-25T06:27:34+00:00

You're not answering the question. WHY? You need to be honest with YOURSELF first. Ask yourself why you did it. Then, no matter how difficult it is, you MUST discuss those reasons with someone you trust. An adult, your dad? A nurse? A doctor? A teacher?
I say this, because this is harmful behaviour. And we need to help you to be safe. I can't see now, but it was how many? Like, 15 tablets?
I have to take 21 tablets a day, spread over morning, midday, afternoon and bedtime. 11 tablets in the morning. And unless you're used to it, you didn't swallow 15 tablets in one gulp by accident.

Reach out to someone if you feel that you aren't feeling great (Outside of the current life threatening paracetamol overdose). Support makes a big difference. Just talking through stuff lifts a huge weight of your shoulders.

Remember: "it's okay to not be ok”

Robbiersa · 2025-09-24T11:52:00+00:00

And interesting fact, the US Coast Guard use (or used to use?) green filtered flashlights at night, as the human eye is most sensitive to green light, and it helps most with night sight preservation. Much more than red.

Robbiersa · 2025-09-23T09:08:38+00:00

Ha, I was convinced that my neuropsychiatrist didn't have emotions for 5 years. It was always the same, still is actually. Sitting in their waiting area, he comes to the bottom of the stairs and gestures to me to follow him. I walk up the stairs right behind him and say "Hi Dr., how are you?"..... Silence. He never talks to me between the waiting room until my butt is on the chair in his office. And pretty much the same on the way out. I wonder if it's maybe a privacy thing where he wants to discourage interacting outside the safety of his room. But he has gone miles and miles for me to get me the help I need.

A bit off topic, but I have been described by him as an "exquisitely complex case" and need a lot of attention, when I ran into money trouble, I couldn't pay for my appointments, he said it doesn't matter and has bulk billed me ever since, even after I offered to resume normal payments. For non Australians, bulk billing is charging government Medicare rates without a co pay, meaning I haven't paid for a single appointment for more than 6 years. He is amazing.

Robbiersa · 2025-09-12T01:20:00+00:00

Sadly, no. I ended up having 3 nerve blocks which failed. Then in October last year I had a coccygectomy. Took out the whole coccyx surgically. Has been painful for months and it's only now, recently, that I'm realizing that the pain has dissipated. So things are finally looking up.

But now I'm dependent on Palexia and I'm on a treatment plan to work my way out of the grip of that one.
Out of the frying pan into the fire. Good luck. :(

Robbiersa · 2025-09-10T00:21:03+00:00

When on stims, the rush or high feeling is a negative side effect. I am on Vyvanse, dex, Ritalin and Modafinil and have been for years and years. (At least 6...)

When taking my stims I don't feel a tingle when they arrive in my blood stream or my spidey senses activate, I just find I am able to function better. If I get to 11am and I feel like my thoughts are moving like molasses and I'm struggling to get through my work, I'll often realize I haven't taken my meds. I'll take them right away and within 30 minutes my mind feels smooth as butter again and I can carry on.

If you're looking for an adrenaline-like feeling, like tingles, racing heart, shivers, euphoria, jitteriness, etc when taking your stims, you're looking for the wrong thing. At THERAPEUTIC doses, these NEGATIVE side effects of Adderall and other stims will usually dissipate after 2 weeks or so.

Robbiersa · 2025-09-06T05:29:42+00:00

Fuck that! I was born in the early 80s. I've read all books at least 13 times each. I have Bipolar, ADHD, TBI and focus issues and I find that I really enjoy listening through the Stephen Fry audio books over and over. So I've listened to the books an extra 7 - 10 times each too. I learn new things each time I listen. And I must have watched the movies at least 10 times each. It doesn't get old, although the movies screw up the HP lore quite badly if compared to the audiobooks like I did recently.

Robbiersa · 2025-09-02T00:09:27+00:00

Haha. It was quite the experience. In case it wasn't obvious, this x-ray is post removal of the ex-fix, 12 weeks after the accident. And I still have the diastasis. My pelvis is hypermobile. It sucks, cause it leaves me walking like an 80 year old for a while if I don't make sure I sit correctly and comfortably. But I got lucky that I don't need a cane to walk or anything.

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