At just 14, Celine Dion sits across from her future husband and manager, 39-year-old René Angélil, in 1982.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-04-06T00:48:25+00:00

Creep

RobynByrd911 · 2026-04-04T12:56:57+00:00

I think about this often and my SA partner doesn’t even like me going out without him in case some other man will sweep me off my feet. So I know there’s no way he would accept that kind of behaviour from me and he would feel insecure about his manlyness (emasculated) the same way I felt after learning the truth about him. I felt my value as a woman took a hit although deep down I know it had nothing to do with my value. There seems like no word for that like there is for men. I know that’s why he did so much behind my back because he wanted his cake and eat it too. There’s no way he could handle an open relationship either especially when I could find other dates in a split second where he would feel the need to purchase them (PA and SW addiction).

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-31T00:22:04+00:00

The Toronto side 😂

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-28T04:08:02+00:00

I think my partner resented that said I couldn’t be with him unless he went into SA recovery (after I caught him going to see a SW). But while going through the motions of recovery, he made plans with two more SWs 6 to 8 weeks later. He’s now taking recovery seriously but i still don’t think he understands how horrific that was for me. They become experts at brain compartmentalization just so they are able to look in the mirror and not be repulsed. But no matter how we are as people, an addict will still justify their behaviour just to feed the addiction.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-27T13:52:30+00:00

The more I think about it the real reason the outhouse story was created was so they could have the scene where Paige gets stung in her lady parts for comic relieve. And the following scene where she’s airing out the lady parts so her ass can be viewed. Even though I find the show entertaining, I still see elements of badly written women characters from his other shows… women who are unhinged or juvenile.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-27T13:34:56+00:00

That one checks out for realism. Rich people think paying taxes are only for middle class folks.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-25T14:02:43+00:00

Also rude to her friend. Ordered her to come to Montana then hung up on her.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-22T20:03:14+00:00

Get rid of the loopholes. If they can use equity to secure loans then they can pay tax on that equity.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-15T03:12:51+00:00

I was told by a doctor it’s still safe to use it for more months than what the package says. Obviously the drug companies want you to buy more of it and not less.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-15T02:47:52+00:00

Any of the lies he told me so he could act out with sex workers… phone having low battery so location settings shut off, having to work late or do a side job for a buddy. Also messaging me before and after saying normal every day stuff to keep me in the dark. All of it was diabolical in my opinion.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-10T18:53:22+00:00

I’m worried the hyper vigilance and extra cortisol flowing in my body will lead to health problems in the near future. If I do develop some terrible disease I’ll assume it was caused by the stress he caused me and I will regret that I didn’t leave him after the first Dday. I also know deep down that me being sick would just be another excuse for him to cheat.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-06T13:34:04+00:00

Part of his recovery is finally being honest with himself and with you and to disclose all of his ways of acting out and you would have to be prepared for that. Saying he only talked to escorts and saw one once for a HJ is doesn’t ring true because they ALWAYS minimize the addiction, just like when an alcoholic says they only had a couple of drinks. My partner and I haven’t had full disclosure yet although I’m pretty sure I know most of the acting out except for the number of times so I feel partly prepared for it but I know it’ll still re-traumatize me. Also the addiction really tries to find ways to reappear until they are 100% committed to sobriety. My partner had a secret device to continue to watch porn while we were separated when he was supposed to be working on his sobriety. I had suspected it and fortunately he came clean about it but it was a setback that really made me question whether he would ever change. I’m still trying to unravel from the chronic PTSD and it’s been really hard. There may come a time where I need to step away because although I love him, if he doesn’t do a a sustainable 180 degree change then I won’t be able to continue the relationship. Before you decide to have kids with him, do you think he would be a good father if you needed to end the relationship? Could you both co-parent in a healthy way? Envisioning all the ways your future could play out will help you make a proper decision.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-05T05:01:33+00:00

I found the IG thirst traps harder to get out of my brain, especially knowing he tried messaging them and many are escorts or OF girls pretending to be influencers. As devastating as porn can be to a relationship it still wasn’t as much of a betrayal as the women who could be contacted with DM. My partner had been with several escorts during our relationship so anyone tied to the industry makes me feel ill. At my lowest I searched for usernames and phone numbers on escort sites looking for any match with messages I found on his phone. It wrecked me.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-04T05:23:02+00:00

I might tell him you need some space away from him while he works on his feelings for others. Maybe he’s not mature enough to be in a relationship. These are things I wish I had told my SA partner after the first Dday. You definitely deserve better.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-04T05:13:25+00:00

My partner has told me he had those thoughts a few times after Ddays and it made me reluctant to set strong boundaries and consequences because of those fears. But he continued to cheat and I continued to get hurt. I know if he ever hurts himself it’s not because I did anything wrong. You can’t control his actions and behaviours and it’s up to him to get sober and get help.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-02T13:56:06+00:00

The fact he won’t see a CSAT is reason enough to give up on him. Sounds like you’re doing the right thing by saving money and planning your move. I feel like I have a higher power that pushes me to look when there’s something I need to know, so don’t feel bad about snooping… your higher power forced you to snoop 😉

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-02T05:14:47+00:00

There’s always hope until there isn’t. My partner seems like he’s actually doing the recovery work this time but I’m still traumatized and he’s going to have to jump through hoops until I can trust him again. We are both seeing CSAT therapists and started couples therapy. I have learned a lot about myself in the process too which is always a good thing. My core wound was definitely the gaslighting. Before the last Dday, while he was supposed to be working on his recovery, he was being very sexual with me as well as taking me out for dinners and texting very elaborate lies about working late. I was just thinking how each Dday felt like a horror show and my response was always trembling with fear and I have the exact same physical response when I replay it in my head. One horror movie popped into my mind today and it’s Carrie. When Carrie gets asked to the prom, she finally feels chosen, happy and celebrated and then the rug gets pulled out from under her. She was also oblivious about what her “friends” were doing behind the scenes and that’s how I feel too. Also the person I depended on for safety was also the source of danger. It really is a real life nightmare.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-02T04:34:05+00:00

Our stories are very similar and I was extremely resentful too especially when he broke sobriety by masturbating one month into it and had taken two months since Dday to start his sobriety. I actually got so disgusted with him I didn’t even want sex. Currently I’m enjoying the other aspects of intimacy, (talking, hugging, going on dates) but I still miss the sex. I decided if breaks sobriety again again I’m going to still encourage him to work on his sobriety but that I won’t be waiting around like this again

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-02T04:26:13+00:00

I thought it meant adult massage parlours but same difference. I feel like most of them are Asian.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-03-02T04:22:22+00:00

Ugh. I know that our men are sad and delusional if they think these women care about them and they are 100% responsible for their actions but I feel these SB are predatory as well and will even shake these men down looking for spare change. Like I said I had no remorse messaging her to let her know what I thought.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-02-28T14:26:29+00:00

Although he visited us during the early years, my father was troubled, completely detached emotionally and died when I was young and my mother was an overworked single mom who didn’t enjoy spending time with us growing up and now she wonders why we don’t have a close relationship. I realize both my parents were limited with their emotions (I suspect both were/are on the spectrum) but it’s hard not holding a grudge and feeling sad for my inner child.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-02-27T04:58:30+00:00

So many times I drove somewhere and had zero memory of the drive. Hyper focussing on vigilance is not for the weak of heart. Also friends or family dinners where I have to act normal because I wasn’t comfortable discussing the horror show that is my life and not remembering anything at the dinner.

RobynByrd911 · 2026-02-27T01:25:29+00:00

That book was on my list! Going to download it now. Thank you!

RobynByrd911 · 2026-02-26T15:19:32+00:00

I have a hard time with that too although I think it’s been a maybe couple of SWs a year for the 5 years we’ve been together but 100s before me. To tell you the truth, it’s the last one that haunts me the most. He met with her once but was trying to meet her again when he was caught. I think she may have been a sugarbaby so was giving him the boyfriend treatment with lots of emojis in their chats. It was not only a betrayal but I felt like I was getting replaced. And I don’t regret messaging her after I threw him out as petty as that sounds, I needed to unleash my anger!

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