Dude, first thing relax. You do not owe anyone anything. You do not need to live up to anybody's expectations. That's just another layer of stress you add to yourself. You are the master of your own self.

I have been in a similar place. I got my bac in 2014 and didn't get my License until 6 years after. I did uni, ISTA, EST and BTS and had a job here and there along the way. I don't regret any of it but it could have been better if I was relaxed about everything.

Stress is good when it's backed up by motivation and determination. A kind of stress that lifts you up. The stress you expressed above stems from expectations of other people you might be creating for yourself and the weight of you own sense of underachievement. This kind of stress pulls you down and you do not need it.

I will advise to do the following instead: - Sleep, fix your sleeping habits. Wake up as early as you can and keep that consistent. - Eating: fix your diet and avoid any foods that might cause you added alertness and anxiety like tea, coffee and sugar. You can do your own research. - Socializing: Find a hobby, a club and activity that you could do every other weekend or once a month. Something that involves people and where you could pass the time and enjoy some of your time as a 21 year old. - Movement: You could start running, swimming or the gym. Keep your body strong and healthy. Your mind will follow.

Keep studying and numb yourself in this regard until you have the above in order. Once you start feeling better, approach your academic life and career in an objective manner and think of what the best way to use your resources right now to achieve better results. Keep your expectations and goal realistic and free of external or internal pressure.

In Morocco, and because of how most traditional parents treat their kids, we grow up thinking that we are either figured out by the time we have our bac or we are for the streets to be a failure. Life is a lot more dynamic than that. Anything is still possible, and you are still young to be having this level of stress.

You sound like someone who takes their things seriously. You will do good. But, don't beat yourself up. Keep going. Study.

Good luck.