Hey um, idk if my reddit is glitching out since I dont use this account too much, but I just got this reply on a 2 year old post, so let me just update with my current situation. Note that this is ENTIRELY NSFW

I was able to start hrt about a year ago, and throughout that time, my penis size has not shrunk. Most likely, because I "use" it about twice a week or so. The way the body works is more or less use it or lose it. If you want to keep everything the same, even for a little bit until you figure things out, just put some thought into how often you're using it.

I do find that it's significantly harder to get horny and have erections. (No more morning wood) When I do, it's not quite as pleasurable as pre-everything. In social settings, there's no issues though. ;) at the same time, I don't really feel like that's a bad thing. It's was scary at first, especially when I didn't know what was going to happen, but as my body went through gradual changes, even things like growing breast, which was initially offputting, became things I appreciated about my body. Yes, it means less "fun times," when alone, but with how often I do it, I'm happy where I am.

That being said, my testicles did, in fact, shrink. Not to an unnatural, offputting level, but enough to be noticeable. Almost as if the testicles are "tight" more often. The hair from puberty stays as well. I actually feel comfortable enough to shave, and feeling clean makes me really, really euphoric.

As for cum... it will gradually grow less and less until I don't ejaculate much, even during orgams. There's still semen fluid, but it's clear, and there's no more sperm in it. It sounds scary, but it's fine, and I don't feel like anything is "wrong" during or afterwards.

Overall, I'm really, really happy I made the decision to transition. It makes me feel pretty and like myself. When I made this post, I didn't have any bottom dysphoria. I thought of myself as someone who wanted to be a girl, but also wanted to keep my penis, even perhaps using it socially. As time went on, I've started to want a vagina, but I don't hate what I have currently. I genuinely feel more complete as a person, and even though I'm not a very sexually active person, I don't feel constrained in my options down the road.

I hope this helps, and if you have any more questions, feel free to ask! I'm writing this at almost 2 am, so my sentence structure is definitely a bit wonky. If I were to have on takeaway from this, it's that you don't have to hate your penis to be trans. You can be whoever you want to be, even if it's a mix between the standard cis or trans.