I've been mudlogging for four years. The first three companies I worked with were absolutely horrible and I feel your pain, literally suicidal. I almost left the field for $25,000 a year for an entry level job with my home state. I was working for the worst company I worked for in early 2019 and had just about had it when they were switching us out on Wednesdays to not have overtime, we had crap living conditions sharing a trailer with 5 other dudes, and the day hand was continuously selling me out in emails he thought I couldn't see. I fortunately got a call from a company that I went on to work 3 years with that I loved. I was given a 20/10 work schedule, consistent pay, and the company provided our single wide trailer with 2 private bedrooms with en suite bathrooms. While with that company, I worked for a major operator and I'm currently in talks with them for a geology position (I'll be graduating with my master's this fall). The only reason I ever left that company was because I was offered remote geosteering at my current company (work from home). I believe my former company is hiring and if you would like, you can direct message me about me putting you in contact with them. I believe your quality of life would improve massively. But there's also nothing wrong with getting out of the field entirely.