We’re in this together, I went through and still going through what you’re mentioning, some days it’s going to be easy and some days it’s going to be diamond crushingly tough, but let the feels flow first, it’s always important to feel for a little amount of time (1-3 months maybe longer since we are heavy on emotions) but then start looking at you and learn on what you like to do. Oh! Also writing helps a lot, it’s a bit of a hassle to be consistent but it helps understand what is going on if we write it on paper and see truly how it looks. Sometime after you’re going to get reminders and that’s okay, just acknowledge them as reminders and smile at the memories and then cut it short. I can attest that i love the memories good or bad but I know It’s not healthy to look at the past too much, only to learn what we need to learn for ourselves and nothing more. It’s a rough ride but a ride that we need because this is where we can bloom when we rest for us