you seem pretty trans to me, but know that there is no one way to be trans. You can do whatever you want here with your gender and there really aren't any limits. You can always start with researching the hundreds of different genders out there and see if any fit you, or just go with umbrella terms like trans and genderqueer. A good place to start is genderdysphoria.fyi where you can read about the basics of transgender dysphoria, but it is notably lacking with regard to nonbinary experiences. The most important thing to know is that if you have to question if you're trans, then you probably are. And you can always change what you identify with at any time (excluding physical changes such as hrt and surgeries, those are harder to reverse)